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I got really drunk at the wedding this saturday.
It was awesome fun until you don't remember the night anymore and wake up still drunk.
I am getting closer to the possibility of not drinking.
I hate how it consumes my desire and creativity.
When I drink, it's fun and then I can't stop until I blackout or then later pass out.
The next day I can hardly function - sleeping in super later, can't move, nausea.
It's just not worth it.
I am finding things that I love more.
I want to do more custom munnys, custom glasses, art, photography, website.
I want to have fun doing that stuff. Creating these things makes me feel really alive.
Alcohol just puts me depressed again which is what I am trying to get past; so why put myself
back in that state.
I have to make more strides in the right direction.
I can do it.
It was awesome fun until you don't remember the night anymore and wake up still drunk.
I am getting closer to the possibility of not drinking.
I hate how it consumes my desire and creativity.
When I drink, it's fun and then I can't stop until I blackout or then later pass out.
The next day I can hardly function - sleeping in super later, can't move, nausea.
It's just not worth it.
I am finding things that I love more.
I want to do more custom munnys, custom glasses, art, photography, website.
I want to have fun doing that stuff. Creating these things makes me feel really alive.
Alcohol just puts me depressed again which is what I am trying to get past; so why put myself
back in that state.
I have to make more strides in the right direction.
I can do it.