some bullshit about my week
A couple of years ago was last Saturday. I finished my last exam and there it was- eternal freedom (let's arbitrarily call the start of october eternity). At 11:39 I opened my first Guinness of the day, and by noon I was on my third and eating fairly decent food. Eight cans and a bottle of wine later, I woke up the next morning feeling fine, mainly due to the fact that the next morning was somewhere in the middle of the next afternoon.
I made mistakes on Sunday. I pretty much ruined my life again and became the emo king. The bad kind of emo. (Obviously having a few emotions is better than singing for fallout boy and getting your cock out on camera, but being a needy crying attention whore is worse still. Well maybe not)
Then came Monday, and I pretty much sat around moping. I couldnt even go to my favourite union night because everyone had tuesday exams. Id have just stood there moping too, because monday sucked
Tuesday though. Tuesday was a good distraction. I pretty much slept until dinner time, then we went out to leamington, queued for 3 hours to be told the place was full, so went to another place. Bit dull really.
So Wednesday. We went and played 21 outside in this big concrete area where all the drunks sit, then went and danced around in the union which we were stupid enough to pay £5 for the last hour of a shit union event
Thursday, the maths people finished their exams, so we had zains birthday party as his birthday was in the summer holidays. We mananged to keep him out the kitchen all day and it was a complete surprise, then we went to the colloseum where there were live bands and then i was all smiley because the dj played some radiohead for me. Oh and i got a bit drunk.
Friday... Another dull day, but we did go out and see a couple of local bands in the union at night. Thats about it...
Saturday, a few people went out but i forgot to get a ticket, and i sat in the corridor with the few people left, feeling disturbingly lonely. These 4 people are so dull that i feel more sociable sitting in my room alone. Which i did until past dawn by which time id managed to cheer myself up immensely.
AAAAnyway. Yesterday. Thats sunday, I got rudely awoken by the karl, asking if i wanted to play basketball, so i went and played basketball, which i was intrinsically good at and had no skills for. Then we went to this amazing chinese restaruant buffet thing where i actually LIKED some chinese food! Then we went to watch mission impossible 3, and finally we came home.
I had a bit of a moment of clarity last night. I felt free from needing things. I just want, and i want the things i needed, so nothing much changes but i feel more relaxed and free.
But now im bored again. And its just the boredom that makes me sad and needy. Remember the last time you didnt have work or school or anything?
We have numerous restaurants and cinemas and alton towers planned for the next 2 weeks. Hopefully while that distracts me i can sort myself out for the summer
I made mistakes on Sunday. I pretty much ruined my life again and became the emo king. The bad kind of emo. (Obviously having a few emotions is better than singing for fallout boy and getting your cock out on camera, but being a needy crying attention whore is worse still. Well maybe not)
Then came Monday, and I pretty much sat around moping. I couldnt even go to my favourite union night because everyone had tuesday exams. Id have just stood there moping too, because monday sucked
Tuesday though. Tuesday was a good distraction. I pretty much slept until dinner time, then we went out to leamington, queued for 3 hours to be told the place was full, so went to another place. Bit dull really.
So Wednesday. We went and played 21 outside in this big concrete area where all the drunks sit, then went and danced around in the union which we were stupid enough to pay £5 for the last hour of a shit union event
Thursday, the maths people finished their exams, so we had zains birthday party as his birthday was in the summer holidays. We mananged to keep him out the kitchen all day and it was a complete surprise, then we went to the colloseum where there were live bands and then i was all smiley because the dj played some radiohead for me. Oh and i got a bit drunk.
Friday... Another dull day, but we did go out and see a couple of local bands in the union at night. Thats about it...
Saturday, a few people went out but i forgot to get a ticket, and i sat in the corridor with the few people left, feeling disturbingly lonely. These 4 people are so dull that i feel more sociable sitting in my room alone. Which i did until past dawn by which time id managed to cheer myself up immensely.
AAAAnyway. Yesterday. Thats sunday, I got rudely awoken by the karl, asking if i wanted to play basketball, so i went and played basketball, which i was intrinsically good at and had no skills for. Then we went to this amazing chinese restaruant buffet thing where i actually LIKED some chinese food! Then we went to watch mission impossible 3, and finally we came home.
I had a bit of a moment of clarity last night. I felt free from needing things. I just want, and i want the things i needed, so nothing much changes but i feel more relaxed and free.
But now im bored again. And its just the boredom that makes me sad and needy. Remember the last time you didnt have work or school or anything?
We have numerous restaurants and cinemas and alton towers planned for the next 2 weeks. Hopefully while that distracts me i can sort myself out for the summer