dont ask, jamie
because its all far too disturbing and personal for you to not be told its nothing and to fuck off again when you ask "whats wrong ross?" and i say .. ah crap youve been reading my lj havent you
but this site is my only outlet, and i feel fucking awful again. i feel like ive forgotten who i really am and what reality really is. ive been hiding in my optimism for so long i believe its the truth, and even though i KNOW that im deluding myself, i still continue to believe my delusions.
in fact if anybody asks what the hell im talking about, ill be happy that you care, but dont be offended if i tell you to mind your own business
these outbursts just make things 1000x worse dont they?
but this site is my only outlet, and i feel fucking awful again. i feel like ive forgotten who i really am and what reality really is. ive been hiding in my optimism for so long i believe its the truth, and even though i KNOW that im deluding myself, i still continue to believe my delusions.
in fact if anybody asks what the hell im talking about, ill be happy that you care, but dont be offended if i tell you to mind your own business
these outbursts just make things 1000x worse dont they?