the most boring day off in ze universe
what up, friends? i'm really really bored right now and remembered suddenly that i had a livejournal. so here i am. i haven't written anything very meaningful in a long time. i haven't really written anything meaningful in a long time anywhere to be perfectly honest. i've been really unmotivated which is disappointing since winter used to be my most productive time. meh. maybe since we got some music making software on the computer i will pick it back up again. i seem to have this paralyzing fear of failing lately. in every aspect of my life. i kinda want a new job, but i'm scared i won't be good at whatever it is. i want to make some skating progress but i'm scared not of falling, but that i just won't be able to do it and will have more reasons to be disappointed in myself. and i'm scared to write because i'm afraid i don't know how anymore. i think i'm running away from everything..i don't think i've even properly mourned bugles yet. i was looking through old entries to find a song i had written awhile back, and there was a journal entry that talked about him and started sobbing uncontrollably. soooo. there's my story for today. maybe with any luck i will force myself to drag out my notebook and can do some writing tonight since there is absolutely nothing going on to distract me. i'll post if i come up with anything.
byebye!
byebye!