too cool for school
what up, friends? i'm just sitting here wondering why i decided to only get one book at the library last visit. i finished he, she, and it in three days..and you get to keep the library books for three weeks. i don't know what i was thinking. james is reading three different books right now, so i'm trying to let him have some happy reading time. but i am bored to tears.
sadness. a cold front came through last night and it is actually fairly nice outside for the first time in who knows how long, but i can't go skate because i believe a train ran over me in my sleep last night. i need a massage. big time. at least it's supposed to be nice through tuesday so i can perhaps get some skate-town in tommorrow or tuesday. today is just too lazy a day. i hope my brain wakes up before it is time to hang out with the melissa. i wouldn't want her to think i am a braindead fool.
minneapolis sounds more tempting all the time. i think i am craving a fresh start. not completely starting over, cause james will still be with me..just a chance to cut off some old ties that i don't really want anymore. i wish i could talk all of the people that i don't wish to cut off to come with me. namely rachael, and possibly melissa if we don't for some odd reason decide we hate eachother today! i think as long as you don't turn out to be a creepy old man, i'll be okay. i don't know. there are people here that i have invested a lot of time and effort in that have not turned out to be who i thought they were. it's like planting a little garden, with violets and posies and whatnot..singing to them, and watering..and then they start popping out of the soil and you notice that they are in fact zuccini plants. sadness. i also kind of feel like there is this image i have created of myself, this person who is not me at all. and that i have to continue keeping myself in this little box so i don't disappoint. i'm ready to discard that person, but i can't as long as my past keeps hanging around.
this is quite a ramble, sorry bout that. i hope you guys are having a lovely day, and that you didn't feel obligated to read through all this if you didn't want to!
sadness. a cold front came through last night and it is actually fairly nice outside for the first time in who knows how long, but i can't go skate because i believe a train ran over me in my sleep last night. i need a massage. big time. at least it's supposed to be nice through tuesday so i can perhaps get some skate-town in tommorrow or tuesday. today is just too lazy a day. i hope my brain wakes up before it is time to hang out with the melissa. i wouldn't want her to think i am a braindead fool.
minneapolis sounds more tempting all the time. i think i am craving a fresh start. not completely starting over, cause james will still be with me..just a chance to cut off some old ties that i don't really want anymore. i wish i could talk all of the people that i don't wish to cut off to come with me. namely rachael, and possibly melissa if we don't for some odd reason decide we hate eachother today! i think as long as you don't turn out to be a creepy old man, i'll be okay. i don't know. there are people here that i have invested a lot of time and effort in that have not turned out to be who i thought they were. it's like planting a little garden, with violets and posies and whatnot..singing to them, and watering..and then they start popping out of the soil and you notice that they are in fact zuccini plants. sadness. i also kind of feel like there is this image i have created of myself, this person who is not me at all. and that i have to continue keeping myself in this little box so i don't disappoint. i'm ready to discard that person, but i can't as long as my past keeps hanging around.
this is quite a ramble, sorry bout that. i hope you guys are having a lovely day, and that you didn't feel obligated to read through all this if you didn't want to!