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Relationships are entirely and utterly complicated. Alcohol makes matters so much worse and extremely difficult to compose articulate sentences. How can I be so willing to give my all when the other person is not? I understand though. I don't have to accept anything, but I understand.
On a another note....I got extremely wasted tonight. I think I may have been the only one who did at the party. You could, in fact, say I'm a little embarrassed by my own behavior. I walked around with a huge smile on my face, threw up, and was told by a french boy to stop drinking. I'm horrible and a drunkard. Oh, god how will I be able to face any of those people now? I fell on the floor in front of my roommate as well. Isn't that awful? I don't even know what happened! I just sort of fell. I don't even know exactly what I had to drink...some austrain specialty drink, some spanish drink...what else? Oh, I guess vodka, and wine of course. MMM, the quantities are unspecified though. I want to hide in utter shame.
On a another note....I got extremely wasted tonight. I think I may have been the only one who did at the party. You could, in fact, say I'm a little embarrassed by my own behavior. I walked around with a huge smile on my face, threw up, and was told by a french boy to stop drinking. I'm horrible and a drunkard. Oh, god how will I be able to face any of those people now? I fell on the floor in front of my roommate as well. Isn't that awful? I don't even know what happened! I just sort of fell. I don't even know exactly what I had to drink...some austrain specialty drink, some spanish drink...what else? Oh, I guess vodka, and wine of course. MMM, the quantities are unspecified though. I want to hide in utter shame.