Update

[rosiered]

So, here I am. Havn't written since March, jeeze. Well it's be a glorious seven months. Actually glorious isn't even the word. Interesting sounds better. So an interesting seven months had just passed. I don't even know where to begin. As of now I'm writing an english essay that I could care less about because in no way, shape or form will this help me do what I really want to do in life. Thats what bothers me so much about this whole school ordeal. I'd love to be trained in exactly what I want to do and then just do it. I guess theres a reason for building up to a profession however. I've spent 16 years of my life in school already (including pre-school) out of the 19 I've been on this earth, and I can conclude that it's all too structured for no reason. If one is intelligently capable of mixing chemicals then so be it and if someone else is only intelligently capable of flipping hamburgers the rest of their lives, then thats what they should do. This should be considered from the get go. Anyway, I'm ranting.

I applied to Suny New Paltz. Sent in my application a few days ago. Extremely excited about that.

I'm also looking to sell my car because once I get my job, it's leasing time!

These are all just things I'm happy about among other things. Underneathe though, I've been depressed and full of gloom. I can't seem to get out of this state of being. It's like all I want to do is sleep. I can't seem either to figure out what makes me truly feel this way and how I can make myself happy again. Maybe its just a lump I fell into and that hopefully will soon enough fall out of again.