is it over or is it just beginning?
dear You,
ive been havin a rough time in the boy department. the straw finally broke the camels back...im the camel. why is it so hard to get over things? i can get over most anything. i have gotten over ALOT. but why cant i now? maybe its cuz i really dont want to wait to find out what happened this time. maybe its cuz there was always a way for me to find out the truth and now theres not. maybe its cuz im just tired of having to plot and pick and threaten to find out the truth. why is it so hard for some people to tell the truth? now 2 hearts are broken. and im tired of cryin about it. i used to be so strong. i think ive forgotten who i am...
i am strong. im sarcastic. i have more street smarts then book smarts. but i have more book smarts then car smarts. im short but yet im so tall. and i dont back down from anyone, espcially if i kno im right or i can win. im not afraid to say what i feel and most definatly not afraid to do what i want. you wont ever see me doin somethin i dont want to do. and u wont see me with mismatched clothes either. im very stubborn and head strong. and im very persuasive.
i believe in 3 strikes ur out. if u somehow exceed 3 ur too lucky and should be expectin the boot any minute.
i believe that the first cut is the deepest, too bad there are more then one "first" cuts. it seems like there are cuts, scrapes, gashes, and complete severs. some of them scab and heal right away. some of them are deep and go straight to the bone. some of them are so bad that u go completely numb and reamain in a state of shock. those are the worst kind cuz when u come out of shock u feel the excruciating pain and u sense a loss of something youll never get back.
i believe that everyone has a soul mate. but just because u want someone or love someone, doesnt mean thats who ur supposed to end up with. i believe in sweet talkers that not only tell u sweet things when ur pissed, and about to walk away, but all the time. day and night. i believe in saving the best for last and being easy to please. laughter is the best medicine and strong friendships are made when u truly laugh with someone.
i believe that everyone should wear warning signs around their neck. that way we'll all kno if ur a cheater or a liar, a people pleaser or just fake. then we would kno the difference between funny and perverted and the difference between sweet and sensitive.
and most of all i believe in you, God. i believe that when i pray in faith, You will answer my prayers. i believe that You want the best for me, and even tho i have an idea of the man i want. u kno EXACTLY the man for me, and he probly comes in different packaging then i expect. i kno You wont ever leave me lost and scared. i believe that if i have faith the size of a mustard seed, i can move mountains. and thats exactly what i intend to do. help me.
amen
ive been havin a rough time in the boy department. the straw finally broke the camels back...im the camel. why is it so hard to get over things? i can get over most anything. i have gotten over ALOT. but why cant i now? maybe its cuz i really dont want to wait to find out what happened this time. maybe its cuz there was always a way for me to find out the truth and now theres not. maybe its cuz im just tired of having to plot and pick and threaten to find out the truth. why is it so hard for some people to tell the truth? now 2 hearts are broken. and im tired of cryin about it. i used to be so strong. i think ive forgotten who i am...
i am strong. im sarcastic. i have more street smarts then book smarts. but i have more book smarts then car smarts. im short but yet im so tall. and i dont back down from anyone, espcially if i kno im right or i can win. im not afraid to say what i feel and most definatly not afraid to do what i want. you wont ever see me doin somethin i dont want to do. and u wont see me with mismatched clothes either. im very stubborn and head strong. and im very persuasive.
i believe in 3 strikes ur out. if u somehow exceed 3 ur too lucky and should be expectin the boot any minute.
i believe that the first cut is the deepest, too bad there are more then one "first" cuts. it seems like there are cuts, scrapes, gashes, and complete severs. some of them scab and heal right away. some of them are deep and go straight to the bone. some of them are so bad that u go completely numb and reamain in a state of shock. those are the worst kind cuz when u come out of shock u feel the excruciating pain and u sense a loss of something youll never get back.
i believe that everyone has a soul mate. but just because u want someone or love someone, doesnt mean thats who ur supposed to end up with. i believe in sweet talkers that not only tell u sweet things when ur pissed, and about to walk away, but all the time. day and night. i believe in saving the best for last and being easy to please. laughter is the best medicine and strong friendships are made when u truly laugh with someone.
i believe that everyone should wear warning signs around their neck. that way we'll all kno if ur a cheater or a liar, a people pleaser or just fake. then we would kno the difference between funny and perverted and the difference between sweet and sensitive.
and most of all i believe in you, God. i believe that when i pray in faith, You will answer my prayers. i believe that You want the best for me, and even tho i have an idea of the man i want. u kno EXACTLY the man for me, and he probly comes in different packaging then i expect. i kno You wont ever leave me lost and scared. i believe that if i have faith the size of a mustard seed, i can move mountains. and thats exactly what i intend to do. help me.
amen