Am I back for the better?

Apr 16, 2006 22:52

A lot has gone down...and I can never take it back...what am I to do with all mistake? Do I just put them in my pocket and keep on walken? No one knows were there be at, or were there end at. I just know were I am at now. And right now it not good. I feel lost with despair, hopeless in my sins. And what brought me happiness is now unreal to me. My religion is what bright me to this point in time and now I just don’t know if I believe. But ask me to say it is not true and I can not say it. I am torn in my lack of faith, tormented in by my knowledge. You can read and say you read but never feel a dam thing! You can pray and feel an answer coming on, but never be shore if it is real. Do you know what I will give to really know God… My soul, my every want, and need. But am not shore any more. I feel humans are the destroyers of this world, call earth. All sadness comes from humans. Hate destroys our human race, and selfishness takes over our action. We do not care for what will come but we do care for what we have. We all die, some at some time, but we tray to live forever. I am just sad, sad about the world around me…sad about how I am, and what I meet be come…sad for others…All I want is to be happy with a family the loves me and care for me. Were it is safe to love back,...were there is no selfishness. My place, my world…I really want to find a man that feels that he can change his world by starting off in his family, and is not afraid to love, care, and protected. O-God send me that one that will uplift me in all good things. Help me find him as fast as possible. Let us stand as witnesses of your power, and glory. Help me…take me away from this pain of lowliness, and despair.
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