Jul 17, 2006 18:15
Its funny how things change your life. How some situations can make you realize how much you took life for granted. Like you do something you thing is right, then it goes bad, and you reflect on how stupid you were. Its really hard to deal with, because then you have to make decisions that will ulimately hurt someone, and most of the time its you and someone else. And then you dont want to think of how it hurts them because yer hurt. I really wish that things would just be all good and happy whenever I wanted them to be. But I know thats not possible.
A great friend of mine made me think today. He told me not to go looking for happiness, that it would come to me if I just sat back. And that made me think of how happy I was when I didnt try to be happy. It seems like it was so long ago. I have been putting on an act for so long, and now I think its time for me to just leave my life in God's hands. I stopped praying and going to church, because something else always came up. But now, Im going to get my priorities in line. Its time for me to face life head on and stop dreaming and being stupid and immature. I am 18 years old, about to go and live on my own a thousand miles away from my parents. And I wont be able to do it alone. I need God to help me...