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as we milled around in the bubble yesterday night, tear streaked faces just waiting for the right person to find amidst the chaos, i found erin. we hugged briefly and i realized something. her sister, her sister's girlfriend and her boyfriend all knew i was moving. so i looked her in the eyes and told her 'there's something i need to tell you and i want you to hear it from me, and not someone else.'
'oh no...' was her response.
looking around, i realized i had an obligation to make sure i hugged almost every one, made sure everybody was ok (even though i wasn't all that ok, with my allergies on top of the fact that i had been near on sobbing during prayer). 'let me catch a couple more people and then we'll talk, okay?'
erin nodded and set out on her way. i milled about, hugging mike (this setting off a fresh wave of tears) and then taking a few of the younger kids in hugs, making sure they were going to be ok. i was nearing the exit to the bubble when i saw erin out of the corner of my eye, walking up to me. she looked at me and said...
'you're moving to syracuse, aren't you?'
all i could do was nod before she started crying and basically fell into my arms. no more were the silent tears, we were both crying, near on sobbing into each other's shoulders as the realization hits us both that this will most likely be my last crossroads meeting as adult staff. this will most likely be the last crossroads meeting for me ever.
a few more words are shared between us, a promise that i will be at some of the summer events, what my plans for leaving are and erin goes again, only to be followed by lisa. i hadn't said a word to her, but she knows.
this place has been something i've helped build, these kids are such a huge part of my life. leaving them is going to be so difficult, even if it's because i need to go and build my own community, and go off and live my own life finally. away from my family and away from a place that while holding so many great memories for me, holds so many bad ones.
i'm going to miss these kids like crazy.
as i walked up to steve (someone that had pushed my plans to go to syracuse out of me during shifting partners) and gave him one last hug before he left, we grinned at each other because there was nothing much else we could do. 'hey, if you end up going to the university medical college in syracuse, you can come be on my young adult staff!'
the smile still there, steve said 'you know i will.'
'oh no...' was her response.
looking around, i realized i had an obligation to make sure i hugged almost every one, made sure everybody was ok (even though i wasn't all that ok, with my allergies on top of the fact that i had been near on sobbing during prayer). 'let me catch a couple more people and then we'll talk, okay?'
erin nodded and set out on her way. i milled about, hugging mike (this setting off a fresh wave of tears) and then taking a few of the younger kids in hugs, making sure they were going to be ok. i was nearing the exit to the bubble when i saw erin out of the corner of my eye, walking up to me. she looked at me and said...
'you're moving to syracuse, aren't you?'
all i could do was nod before she started crying and basically fell into my arms. no more were the silent tears, we were both crying, near on sobbing into each other's shoulders as the realization hits us both that this will most likely be my last crossroads meeting as adult staff. this will most likely be the last crossroads meeting for me ever.
a few more words are shared between us, a promise that i will be at some of the summer events, what my plans for leaving are and erin goes again, only to be followed by lisa. i hadn't said a word to her, but she knows.
this place has been something i've helped build, these kids are such a huge part of my life. leaving them is going to be so difficult, even if it's because i need to go and build my own community, and go off and live my own life finally. away from my family and away from a place that while holding so many great memories for me, holds so many bad ones.
i'm going to miss these kids like crazy.
as i walked up to steve (someone that had pushed my plans to go to syracuse out of me during shifting partners) and gave him one last hug before he left, we grinned at each other because there was nothing much else we could do. 'hey, if you end up going to the university medical college in syracuse, you can come be on my young adult staff!'
the smile still there, steve said 'you know i will.'