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I really need to start writing every day. Since this day is almost over, and I am sitting here on my bed with the computer on my lap and a book by my knee, not feeling like moving far, I decided to write on here.
As far as what I was measuring, things I was trying to keep up with, things go as follows:
The vegetarian gig has been hit and miss. I end up going out to eat a couple times a week, and I always end up eating meat then. Often when I go to someone's house, I eat meat. When I'm on my own/at home, I usually try substitutes. Earlier this week I had a veggie burger instead of a burger. Today I really wanted a burger. So, I'm taking one meal at a time now.
I've been ok with the exercise thing. Not doing it as much as I'd like. The softball was keeping me active at least, but now the season is winding down. I haven't biked much since that crazy 52 mile bike ride I did 2 weeks ago. I've done some walking. I figured out why my wrist sometimes hurts. I realized I drag it behind me when I slide during softball. So, I'm going to try to keep my hands up from now on. Wrist pain makes biking a challenge and weights (i.e. pushups) near impossible.
Leaving for Cozumel soon. I'm fairly packed. Well, half packed. Unless one has backups of everything/a lot of extra clothes, it's pretty difficult to pack early. I need to make a quick run to the store (Target?) at some point tomorrow or Monday.
Monday is the Writing Workshop. I was fairly nervous about it, but now I'm not. Giovana and I created a Powerpoint, so that should work much better than notes.
Finally had a summer where I got some paper organization done and some good reading. I wish I could read a bit faster, but probably the more I read, the faster I'll read. The book I've just started is a little slow. I'll probably skip around a bit. It's got exerpts from writer's notebooks. I think that's pretty neat. But some of the excerpts are rather long, and I'm having trouble following the language.
Had a fun aura experience with Sonia yesterday. We were trying to feel each other's energies! And we could. I mean, it felt like we could. That was neat. It made me wonder what else is out there, right in front of us, that we're not aware of. We also had a great discussion about the Four Agreements and other texts by the same author. It was awesome, for a period of maybe a half hour or so, I felt I was actually "in the moment." I felt like I was in a haze, like my body was glowing, but not with light, with energy.
I like trying to continually improve myself. But I want everything I read to match up. The Speed of Trust was great for me. It made me consider my own character and accountability. I really liked the "talk about others as if they are in the room" notion. I plan on using that to help me with my "Be impeccable with your word" resolution. I wish I had some other such trick to help with my "do not assume/take offense" . I am constantly concerned about others' reactions. I would love to be free from that. I would love to be free from fear in general. I think, sometimes, I have a glimpse of my "true self". And then I lose it. It's like a teasing memory. I think I just have to keep reminding myself to be centered.
Well, I think I'll go back to some reading/head off to bed soon. I just wanted to leave with some feelings. Today I didn't keep an engagement. I feel some remorse for it. I didn't know the person well, had gone to a party previously and not known anyone (really no one), and some time conflicts. However, I had said I would go. I texted her to let her know, but I still felt bad about it. My "Speed of Trust" reaction is: I did not keep my commitment. Perhaps I should make it up to her in some way. My "zen" response says: "She will understand. It will pass. You really did not want to go. People miss others' parties all of the time."
So, that's what I'm thinking. Or, at least part of it. :-)
As far as what I was measuring, things I was trying to keep up with, things go as follows:
The vegetarian gig has been hit and miss. I end up going out to eat a couple times a week, and I always end up eating meat then. Often when I go to someone's house, I eat meat. When I'm on my own/at home, I usually try substitutes. Earlier this week I had a veggie burger instead of a burger. Today I really wanted a burger. So, I'm taking one meal at a time now.
I've been ok with the exercise thing. Not doing it as much as I'd like. The softball was keeping me active at least, but now the season is winding down. I haven't biked much since that crazy 52 mile bike ride I did 2 weeks ago. I've done some walking. I figured out why my wrist sometimes hurts. I realized I drag it behind me when I slide during softball. So, I'm going to try to keep my hands up from now on. Wrist pain makes biking a challenge and weights (i.e. pushups) near impossible.
Leaving for Cozumel soon. I'm fairly packed. Well, half packed. Unless one has backups of everything/a lot of extra clothes, it's pretty difficult to pack early. I need to make a quick run to the store (Target?) at some point tomorrow or Monday.
Monday is the Writing Workshop. I was fairly nervous about it, but now I'm not. Giovana and I created a Powerpoint, so that should work much better than notes.
Finally had a summer where I got some paper organization done and some good reading. I wish I could read a bit faster, but probably the more I read, the faster I'll read. The book I've just started is a little slow. I'll probably skip around a bit. It's got exerpts from writer's notebooks. I think that's pretty neat. But some of the excerpts are rather long, and I'm having trouble following the language.
Had a fun aura experience with Sonia yesterday. We were trying to feel each other's energies! And we could. I mean, it felt like we could. That was neat. It made me wonder what else is out there, right in front of us, that we're not aware of. We also had a great discussion about the Four Agreements and other texts by the same author. It was awesome, for a period of maybe a half hour or so, I felt I was actually "in the moment." I felt like I was in a haze, like my body was glowing, but not with light, with energy.
I like trying to continually improve myself. But I want everything I read to match up. The Speed of Trust was great for me. It made me consider my own character and accountability. I really liked the "talk about others as if they are in the room" notion. I plan on using that to help me with my "Be impeccable with your word" resolution. I wish I had some other such trick to help with my "do not assume/take offense" . I am constantly concerned about others' reactions. I would love to be free from that. I would love to be free from fear in general. I think, sometimes, I have a glimpse of my "true self". And then I lose it. It's like a teasing memory. I think I just have to keep reminding myself to be centered.
Well, I think I'll go back to some reading/head off to bed soon. I just wanted to leave with some feelings. Today I didn't keep an engagement. I feel some remorse for it. I didn't know the person well, had gone to a party previously and not known anyone (really no one), and some time conflicts. However, I had said I would go. I texted her to let her know, but I still felt bad about it. My "Speed of Trust" reaction is: I did not keep my commitment. Perhaps I should make it up to her in some way. My "zen" response says: "She will understand. It will pass. You really did not want to go. People miss others' parties all of the time."
So, that's what I'm thinking. Or, at least part of it. :-)