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A Day in the life of a depressed Teen.
You might just lose the one person who understands you more then anything in the world.
can you live with that?
can you survive that?
i thought that you were my friend but i was wrong.
being wrong seems to happen alot lately.
i have a feeling in me that i fucked up something dreadfull.
i dont know.
i sat in my room today with a razor blade sticking out of my wrist. wondering how i was going to finish what i had started.
i draged it across my wrist only to discover it was blunt. you dont care so i wont stop.
you only care about your self and at the moment i cant deal with that.
you must think i m really stupid. fucked in the head mentally.
you know what tell me you fucking hate me and get it over with.
stop saying you will do things and then dont.
stop being hurtfull to me weather you mean to or not.
stop lying to me.
stop acting like you care.
STOP HURTING ME.
but i guess you think " well hey her life has been fucked around by so many people whats one more going to do to her?"
i ll tell you what it is going to do. it is going to drive me over the edge. drive me to the knife, the blade the rope.
you dont care that he came back. you wont care if i die.
you think your the only one with problems?
well you not!! you wouldnt survive a day being me!
you have something i will never have no matter how much i want it.
you have people who love you and will be ther for you. i dont, i never have, untill you came along. but that was all an act wasnt it.
i regret everything i have ever told you. i regret everything up untill this point, and hay i m going to regret writing this as well.
you are my friend but i m not sure i even have that anymore.
i have nothing. i never have had anthing.
you have had everything. every oppertunity you need and so many more. you have people that love you. friends that are there for you that would come the second you called the moment you needed them.
you grew up with a family that loves you and would do anyting for you. you have had people around you that care. every minute of every hour. you have had encouragement, support, love, friendship.
i have had none of those things. i will never have any of those things,
i'd give anything to have what you have. anything.
i m going to finish in saying, i dont know what i have done wrong to deserve this coldness, this hate your sending me but i dont want it. take it out on someone else, i have never asked anything of you but now i ask this, and i know you will think i m out of line in asking it but it needed to be asked. i m sorry if i have caused you any offence but i hope you can see the truth in what i say.
Bye Bye.
There you go courts i started it again for you. maybe once a week now of this but you have to read it now!!!
You might just lose the one person who understands you more then anything in the world.
can you live with that?
can you survive that?
i thought that you were my friend but i was wrong.
being wrong seems to happen alot lately.
i have a feeling in me that i fucked up something dreadfull.
i dont know.
i sat in my room today with a razor blade sticking out of my wrist. wondering how i was going to finish what i had started.
i draged it across my wrist only to discover it was blunt. you dont care so i wont stop.
you only care about your self and at the moment i cant deal with that.
you must think i m really stupid. fucked in the head mentally.
you know what tell me you fucking hate me and get it over with.
stop saying you will do things and then dont.
stop being hurtfull to me weather you mean to or not.
stop lying to me.
stop acting like you care.
STOP HURTING ME.
but i guess you think " well hey her life has been fucked around by so many people whats one more going to do to her?"
i ll tell you what it is going to do. it is going to drive me over the edge. drive me to the knife, the blade the rope.
you dont care that he came back. you wont care if i die.
you think your the only one with problems?
well you not!! you wouldnt survive a day being me!
you have something i will never have no matter how much i want it.
you have people who love you and will be ther for you. i dont, i never have, untill you came along. but that was all an act wasnt it.
i regret everything i have ever told you. i regret everything up untill this point, and hay i m going to regret writing this as well.
you are my friend but i m not sure i even have that anymore.
i have nothing. i never have had anthing.
you have had everything. every oppertunity you need and so many more. you have people that love you. friends that are there for you that would come the second you called the moment you needed them.
you grew up with a family that loves you and would do anyting for you. you have had people around you that care. every minute of every hour. you have had encouragement, support, love, friendship.
i have had none of those things. i will never have any of those things,
i'd give anything to have what you have. anything.
i m going to finish in saying, i dont know what i have done wrong to deserve this coldness, this hate your sending me but i dont want it. take it out on someone else, i have never asked anything of you but now i ask this, and i know you will think i m out of line in asking it but it needed to be asked. i m sorry if i have caused you any offence but i hope you can see the truth in what i say.
Bye Bye.
There you go courts i started it again for you. maybe once a week now of this but you have to read it now!!!