Dear Younger Me...
As I sit here in the early dawn, in this house that I've spent blood, sweat and tears on, I know your ghost wanders through the memories of each nook and cranny. This house means the extent of your entire 20s decade of your life. Dear younger me, don't spend so much time thinking about your love for someone that doesn't love you back. Break the karma of your parents, break down the foundations of what you thought love looked like. Because by the time you were old enough to observe it, it was long gone. Stop looking for ways of attachment, please start healing yourself. A broken self can only keep running for so long. Dear younger me, I am finally on the path to heal the patterns that were imposed on me as a child. I know you had to come close to what you thought was a normal life. But I am glad you're intuitive enough to know to finally walk away. You weren't always able to see a bad attitude, you're so kind to think other people just had temporary life obstacles like you. But unlike you, other people get stuck on their own paths in life. They are not open to all the friendship you have in your heart. In this way, you will remain young forever. Dear younger me, loving yourself does not mean rewarding yourself with another amazon order. It doesn't mean buying chocolate or eating pizza for a treat. It means pursuing the mental freedom from structures, It means pursuing a love for your world, but not competing for a way to survive. It means taking the time to be still, not driving yourself until you need a vacation. It means being inspired to change from love, not trying to help the ones you love most. Nothing you can do, other people make material excuses for unhappiness. There is no reason to block the universe's love from your heart anytime. It is always there and is your biggest source of energy, like the sun itself splaying on the earth.
Dear younger self, any excuse to ignore your feelings at any given moment for the sake of another person or material thing should just make you think for a moment. You don't have to do anything, you are on a path to resolve your biggest needs in life.