Darn
Sometimes you don't realize how deeply someone has effected you and how much they've fucked you up until you take a moment back. Aug, I just want to rip myself apart right now, I can't deal with this feeling of weakness and no control over my own thoughts. When I was younger I always thought paranoia was cool and fun, but now I can see that that is not even close to it. I think I need professional help again = /