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Growing up in North Georgia/ South Tennessee I was pretty much forced to go to church sense birth. I would always get up every Sunday, put on a pretty little dress and go to church to learn about Jesus, but they would bribe me with candy and games, and the lessons were always lost, except those drilled into my head through rhyming song. My father told me I had to be a christan and go to church as I got older and he was searching for his faith again. He would make me go to church whether I wanted to or not. He and his wife at the time went as far as choosing what I would wear, and how I could fix my hair. As I grew older and older and became more of my own person I resented going to church more and more . Eventually I completely stopped. Would I had become a devoted christian woman , and marry into a church family and live by the bible if I continued church? Had my Daddy not pushed me so hard into that lifestyle would I have not ran from it as fast as I could?
I have always viewed myself as agnostic. I never have denied God, or religion or faith. I simply have not found mine quiet yet. Not to say that I denounce anyone elses either. Religion is about making yourself a better person, and giving someone a reason to live. Why is there so much hatred with others religion if it makes them happy and a better person?
I mention my father first because he now insist that he be allowed to take Ellenie to church, and while I would never deny her a chance to learn something, I don't want her feeling as if this is what she has to do, or else she will get into trouble or something along those lines. I want her to realize what her options are, and teach her how to make choices for herself. I realize that that is all to heavy for a little girl at start, but I will show her the way of Buddhism. That is what I relate to most in this world. Buddhism is more of a way of life than a religion. Treat others they way you would treat yourself, don't harm others, and keep calm. These are good lessons for anyone.
I just want my daughter to learn and develop her own personality and views, not be molded into what I want her to be. Guidelines for children of course, but guiding her doesn't mean crushing her spirit.
I have always viewed myself as agnostic. I never have denied God, or religion or faith. I simply have not found mine quiet yet. Not to say that I denounce anyone elses either. Religion is about making yourself a better person, and giving someone a reason to live. Why is there so much hatred with others religion if it makes them happy and a better person?
I mention my father first because he now insist that he be allowed to take Ellenie to church, and while I would never deny her a chance to learn something, I don't want her feeling as if this is what she has to do, or else she will get into trouble or something along those lines. I want her to realize what her options are, and teach her how to make choices for herself. I realize that that is all to heavy for a little girl at start, but I will show her the way of Buddhism. That is what I relate to most in this world. Buddhism is more of a way of life than a religion. Treat others they way you would treat yourself, don't harm others, and keep calm. These are good lessons for anyone.
I just want my daughter to learn and develop her own personality and views, not be molded into what I want her to be. Guidelines for children of course, but guiding her doesn't mean crushing her spirit.