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So I've been working at my new center for about three days now. I got that transfer I'd been hoping for, to a center that has a happier and more motivated workforce. So far I'm liking it a lot. Part of the reason I was accepted is because I'm cross-trained in shipping and printing, which is what the manager was looking for. As a smaller center, having people that know how to work at either counter was really high on her list. The funny thing is, I've felt like an absolute idiot ever since I started. My experience on the printing side was fairly limited. One of my old managers would blow a gasket if I left shipping unattended for too long, even if I was helping a customer. On top of that, they have almost completely different machinery in my new center. Having to ask how to work a basic auxiliary machine is actually quite embarrassing, just in case you were wondering. One of the upsides of having to learn almost everything all over again is that I'm learning it the right way. Apparently the people who taught me how to do stuff at my old center taught me the 'cutting corners' way of doing stuff. I think I'm actually more nervous about messing up now than I was when I first started with the company a year ago. At least then I could use the excuse that I didn't have a clue what I was doing. My 'new girl' excuse can only go so far now.
Christmas is edging ever closer, as is my trip to Tennessee with my boyfriend. I've stopped talking about it with him, and my mother, because it's just not worth having the same conversation again. I'm going to fret about it right up until I'm in the midst of his family, and it doesn't seem like any amount of pep-talk from anyone is going to help. This is a huge thing for me. I've met his immediate family (even if his mom doesn't remember me), but this is his ENTIRE family...during their annual Christmas tradition. Anyone I talk to says I'll be fine; all I have to do is be myself and they won't be able to help loving me. I'm still scared shitless.
My boyfriend and his ex are still living together. I'm starting to think he's waiting for my lease to end, but I really hope that that isn't what he's doing. My lease isn't up until August. Her mother came to visit. There was a lot of glaring going on. I had thought that our relationship was finally improving. I guess I was sorely mistaken. I really don't know what to do on that front. On the one hand, she's been one of my best friends for years, and I love her dearly (even if our relationship has been slowly degrading, even before she and my boyfriend split). On the other hand, she's cold and jealous, flirts with him right in front of me, and will hardly look me in the eye sometimes. I don't want to just dump her; we've been through so much together, and even if she acts like a bitch, I still care about her. But I have to admit, she's becoming an annoyance that I really don't want to have to deal with sometimes. If anyone has any advice on how to handle your boyfriend's ex/one of your best friends not being over her ex/your boyfriend and they're still living together...well, I'm all ears.
And I will freely admit, quitting smoking is hard. I was doing so well right up until my friend's mom showed up, and I transferred to my new center. My boyfriend said, very firmly I might add, that I was not allowed to have any cigarettes when we were in Tennessee. Maybe it'll be easier without work and his ex around. I don't want to smoke anymore, and I promised my parents. Not to mention I may have told a lot of people I know about it, and now I have a lot of people pulling for my to quit. Gum, I hear, is one of the best ways. It's helping, but I don't know if it's helping enough. Meh, I'm sure worrying about how hard it is to quit smoking isn't going to help me in any way.
So yeah, that's pretty much it for right now. If I'm not back on before Christmas, wish me luck. And honestly, if you have some advice on the whole ex/friend/roommate situation, I'd really love to hear it.
Christmas is edging ever closer, as is my trip to Tennessee with my boyfriend. I've stopped talking about it with him, and my mother, because it's just not worth having the same conversation again. I'm going to fret about it right up until I'm in the midst of his family, and it doesn't seem like any amount of pep-talk from anyone is going to help. This is a huge thing for me. I've met his immediate family (even if his mom doesn't remember me), but this is his ENTIRE family...during their annual Christmas tradition. Anyone I talk to says I'll be fine; all I have to do is be myself and they won't be able to help loving me. I'm still scared shitless.
My boyfriend and his ex are still living together. I'm starting to think he's waiting for my lease to end, but I really hope that that isn't what he's doing. My lease isn't up until August. Her mother came to visit. There was a lot of glaring going on. I had thought that our relationship was finally improving. I guess I was sorely mistaken. I really don't know what to do on that front. On the one hand, she's been one of my best friends for years, and I love her dearly (even if our relationship has been slowly degrading, even before she and my boyfriend split). On the other hand, she's cold and jealous, flirts with him right in front of me, and will hardly look me in the eye sometimes. I don't want to just dump her; we've been through so much together, and even if she acts like a bitch, I still care about her. But I have to admit, she's becoming an annoyance that I really don't want to have to deal with sometimes. If anyone has any advice on how to handle your boyfriend's ex/one of your best friends not being over her ex/your boyfriend and they're still living together...well, I'm all ears.
And I will freely admit, quitting smoking is hard. I was doing so well right up until my friend's mom showed up, and I transferred to my new center. My boyfriend said, very firmly I might add, that I was not allowed to have any cigarettes when we were in Tennessee. Maybe it'll be easier without work and his ex around. I don't want to smoke anymore, and I promised my parents. Not to mention I may have told a lot of people I know about it, and now I have a lot of people pulling for my to quit. Gum, I hear, is one of the best ways. It's helping, but I don't know if it's helping enough. Meh, I'm sure worrying about how hard it is to quit smoking isn't going to help me in any way.
So yeah, that's pretty much it for right now. If I'm not back on before Christmas, wish me luck. And honestly, if you have some advice on the whole ex/friend/roommate situation, I'd really love to hear it.