B the the fourth power
Break-up
Bankrupt
Blow up
Broken Heart
There was a break up. I overdrew money...so there was bankruptacy. Bethanne and I were on an "L" that was on fire and almost blew up. A best friend from years past broke my heart.
It was a strange 24 hours nonetheless...I suppose that's life. I had three movie screen sob sessions...of course the second time I knew there would have had to be three.
The days have been beautiful and I have been enjoying them...but I honestly don't know what to do. There are so many signs and symbols...and I try and I try to piece them together to figure out their meanings...but it just hasn't come yet. I'm kind of just going with everything...maybe that's good and maybe that's bad.
I'm going out on a date tonight...I've been on one date before in my entire life...I mean I've gone out with guys, guys I've dated...sure, but it wasn't like "Hi...I met you here. I never met you through a friend. You weren't my friend first. Who are you?" So I have an actual "date-date"...and I don't know if I'm ready for it. I don't know if I really want to go. I don't know how I feel about anything anymore...because every time I feel, it all just comes crashing down on me.
And then there's me.
....at least it was beautiful out today.....
Bankrupt
Blow up
Broken Heart
There was a break up. I overdrew money...so there was bankruptacy. Bethanne and I were on an "L" that was on fire and almost blew up. A best friend from years past broke my heart.
It was a strange 24 hours nonetheless...I suppose that's life. I had three movie screen sob sessions...of course the second time I knew there would have had to be three.
The days have been beautiful and I have been enjoying them...but I honestly don't know what to do. There are so many signs and symbols...and I try and I try to piece them together to figure out their meanings...but it just hasn't come yet. I'm kind of just going with everything...maybe that's good and maybe that's bad.
I'm going out on a date tonight...I've been on one date before in my entire life...I mean I've gone out with guys, guys I've dated...sure, but it wasn't like "Hi...I met you here. I never met you through a friend. You weren't my friend first. Who are you?" So I have an actual "date-date"...and I don't know if I'm ready for it. I don't know if I really want to go. I don't know how I feel about anything anymore...because every time I feel, it all just comes crashing down on me.
And then there's me.
....at least it was beautiful out today.....