Meh... This is gonna be a LOOONG one... :/
So, I've just been having a really shitty couple of weeks. I fucked my back up at work probably a week in a half ago. I didn't do anything about it cuz I was just gonna see if it was something I could just let go for a while and be good on. Apparently not. The night before last I lifted a stack of boxes to flip them upright, and it totally fucked my back up even worse. Like, even just laying down or sitting up hurts. And it's right at the bottom of my back, so it's killing me. My gf gave me a couple pain pills to see if it helped cuz I had to work last night too. They kinda did. :/
Today, I'm gonna call around and see what I can do about my back. Idk if it just needs adjusted, or if something's really fucked up with it. Should I just call around for a chiropractor, or should I go to the doctor's to see if something's wrong first? I mean, I'm more worried about the money, you know? Idk, I think I'm just gonna go see a dr. I think that'd be the safest thing, cuz if I go to a chiro and they try to fuck with it, they could just make it worse. :-/
The other night at work, I was stuck working with this old man. Nobody llikes him cuz,
a) he barks at people, and I mean like, bark bark,
b) he raped his daughter,
c) he's always fucking shit up,
d) he's lazy.
I was already in a shitty fucking mood that day because the night before, someone stole the donation money bag for my daughter's school outta my pocket. I went around asking everybody to donate, and had got like $80. So, someone was $80 richer.
I had a hard time sleeping that day, and then my mom woke me up early to cook dinner.
On the way to work, we got pulled over for no light on the license plate. Oh, Steve works with me now. So does his friend. If it weren't for the fact that his friend had a license, Steve probably would've went to jail, the car would've been towed, and I would've had to walk to work. Steve doesn't have a license(obviously), plus he had weed on him. It pissed me off cuz there was like 10 cars that went past with no light on their license plate, PLUS one with no headlight went past. But w/e.
Then this lazy motherfucker was only doing like half hi job. I was doing everything. Wrapping and pulling my skids. Boxing. Making little boxes to put the lids in. Bringing his inserts over for him. Then the labeler went out and he let me pass a whole skid with no labels. It's both our jobs to make sure shit like that don't happen. But, he was the one putting the parts in the box, and I'm NOT lifting all those parts to make sure they have labels on them. He can do that as he's putting the shit together. It's not that hard, all he'd have to do is look at the bottom part before putting it in the box. I was already doing everything else. So, I did all the rework myself. Plus he got all backed up, and I caught all that up for him. At about 7:15 I started helping him out even more so he didn't get backed up or anything before we left, and by 7:30, he was backed up again. So that pissed me off. And at about 7:50, the labels went out again and he didn't notice. So I had to stay after 8 anyway and do more fucking rework. And that motherfucker didn't help at all. There was 4 of us getting this rework done. Motherfucker just pisses me off. Then Nicole was supposed to get Ty and Ashley (her ex) that night before I went to work, to get Ty some clothes. Well, Ashley's gf, or not gf(I have no idea what's going on with that), decided she wanted to take Ty at the last minute somewhere. So Nicole took Ashley to get a tattoo and hang out or w/e. It pissed me off cuz she didn't even tell me until like an hour later that she didn't even have Ty.
I really don't like the fact that she hangs out with her ex. And then it just pissed me off cuz I barely get to see her anymore cuz she got a new job and works 5 days a week, but she sure got to hang out with Ashley that night. I really don't think she's cheating on me with her or anything, but the thought's always in my head. And she knows it. We have our conversations about this all the time.
And I really do understand that she doesn't wanna just walk out on Ty. I really don't want her to anyways. That little boy loves her to death. Like, seriously. She took care of him more than Ashley did.
And I understand that she wants to stay friends with Ashley. And I get that she's always going to have, at least some sort of love for her. She was her first for everything really. And that's what bothers me so much. But they didn't have a really bad breakup. I mean, I always told my ex I would've liked to stay friends if we ever broke up, but he said he wouldn't be able to handle it cuz he'd always love me, and wouldn't be able to stand the fact of not being able to have me. Plus, we had a bad breakup.
But Ashley's always trying to be like, 'ily', or sending her song lyrics, on valentine's day she bought her a rose, and I ripped that bitch up and stuck it on Nic's dashboard to make sure she saw it. :) Oh yeah, IDGAF. That's just fucking ignorant. She keeps trying to get her to come over and watch movies with her, and the other night she told Nic she was gonna drug Kayla(her gf/not gf) and her and Nic could hang out and 'play chess', which was their code for have sex. And Nic told her no, and that she needed to stop saying shit like that. And she was like, 'why? Is someone reading over your shoulder? Cuz if they are, they need to find a new hobby.' Nic said, 'Nobody's reading over my shoulder. We've already talked about this. You need to stop saying shit like this. It doesn't matter if someone's reading it or not. That's not the point. You don't need to say shit like that to me anymore.' And Ash was like, 'W/e. I love how I'm second to everything now' And Nic said, "Look Ash, things are different now. You have to stop that shit. It's not that I'm putting you last. You're just not first anymore. You need to understand that.' And Ashley just got all pissy, so Nic was like, "Well fuck you then. I wasn't trying to get shitty or be mean. You just need to stop with that shit."
Ashley's just trying to keep Nic as close as possible. And I had to explain to Nic that when she started saying this shit, not to just ignore it and go about her way, cuz in Ashley's mind it gives her the go ahead to keep on doing it. I believe you when you say it doesn't mean anything to you,so you just don't say anything. But shes just gonna keep doing it. She said that Ashley'll stop for a lil while when she says something but then keep doing it anyways because that's how she is. I said then you need to say something everytime she says something like that. She told me she would the next time she saw her in person, and she had done something again like a week later. And I said look Nic, you can't just wait around until nobody's around to talk to her about this kinda shit. You need to tell her WHEN it happens. It the same concept as smacking a dog's ass for pissing on the floor a week after it's already happened. It's pointless. So say something WHEN she does it, AND in person if it makes you feel better.
But yeah, we have our own lil issues with that, and we're working on it. I honestly don't think she's cheating on me with her, it's just the fact that it'd be so easy for her to, and it just scares the living shit outta me. But Idk what to do. I don't want to break up with her just for keeping her as a friend. If I ever find any proof or something that something's going on, I will. But until then, I'm just gonna suck it up, and deal with it I suppose. :-/
Anyways, I really just miss all of you guys, and I wanted to let you all know what was going on. Sorry I haven't been here much, but I'm totally working on getting on here more and getting back in touch with you guys. I feel like shit for not getting on here anymore. :-/ But I have to go get some sleep or something now. I'll be back on later.