Past couple days....
So Christmas was pretty good. It was nice. Christmas night Hannah went and stayed with her G-Ma Debbie. She stayed for 2 nights. Sunday was her daddy's birthday. She got to see him. =O SHOCKER THERE!! But a good one. :p
Anyways, I wake up Sunday at about oh 5 and I get on the pc. All of a sudden Tracy and Erica are sending me nonstop text messages. Tracy's asking me to call G-Ma Debbie to bring Hannah home, and WON'T leave me alone, even AFTER I ask her to leave me alone a little while, I'd JUST woke up and I'd call in a few minutes.
Then I'd asked Erica if she ahd a few dollars so I could get something to eat at work because (I JUST got my check TODAY! I'm supposed to get it on Friday, but since it was Christmas, it had to wait. I didn't think it would take THIS fucking long. It's TUESDAY for crying out loud!) I didn't have any money. She said she didn't have any, but if she did, she'd give it to me. That was all fine and dandy.
But then she starts asking, 'Didn't you buy presents from the mall?' I said, 'Yeah. Why?' 'Who'd you get them for?' 'Trish and Diana. Why?' 'Did they get you anything?' 'Not yet. Does it matter?' 'Yea, it kinda does.' 'Why?' 'Cause it's just real nice to know that you are buying presents for people who don't buy them for you when you could've spent that money on Hannah, or someone else.' 'I bought that shit A MONTH ago. I was planning on taking my last 3 checks and buy little presents with them. And I would've had more money to buy presents, but EVERYBODY wanted money from me.' 'Well, that was just unrealistic this year. you spent AT LEAST 50 dollars on that shit.' 'No. It was ON SALE! That's why I got it.' 'W/e, I'm just sick of always looking out for you and yours when you don't.' 'W/E DUDE. I'M JUST THE BIGGEST PIECE OF DOGG SHIT AND I ONLY THINK OF MYSELF.' 'W/E just drop it.'
By then I was in tears. It hurt my feelings VERY bad, and pissed me the FUCK OFF! I'm sick of being the ONLY fucking person paying the bills. Or even worried about them. Not to mention, they borrow money off me ALL the time, and DO NOT fucking pay me back. If I borrow money, or go to buy something off them, I don't even get credit for the money THEY borrowed from me. No, I HAVE to pay it back to them.
Tracy started texting me, YET AGAIN, to call G-Ma Debbie, and I just FREAKED OUT on her. I felt bad, but I really wasn't in the mood. Trish came over like 5 minutes and decided smoke with me and then to take me to work. So, I called the guy that usually takes me, and told him I had a ride. And she gave me a couple dollars and took me to McDonald's.
Then I'm at work and Josh is steady trying to get me to go on a date with his friend Jeff that works with us. I kept saying no because I don't know this guy and I don't really like people spending money on me.
Well yesterday at work, Jeff asked me himself if I'd like to go to dinner, and I told him the same thing. I don't like people spending money on me and I don't really know you. He said something about me being independent, and I siad it's not really independence, I just feel wrong taking someone's money. I didn't even want my ex, even though we were together, to buy me shoes or clothes. But I guess I kind of agreed to go to the movies tonight with him and Josh... :-/
Anyways, I wake up Sunday at about oh 5 and I get on the pc. All of a sudden Tracy and Erica are sending me nonstop text messages. Tracy's asking me to call G-Ma Debbie to bring Hannah home, and WON'T leave me alone, even AFTER I ask her to leave me alone a little while, I'd JUST woke up and I'd call in a few minutes.
Then I'd asked Erica if she ahd a few dollars so I could get something to eat at work because (I JUST got my check TODAY! I'm supposed to get it on Friday, but since it was Christmas, it had to wait. I didn't think it would take THIS fucking long. It's TUESDAY for crying out loud!) I didn't have any money. She said she didn't have any, but if she did, she'd give it to me. That was all fine and dandy.
But then she starts asking, 'Didn't you buy presents from the mall?' I said, 'Yeah. Why?' 'Who'd you get them for?' 'Trish and Diana. Why?' 'Did they get you anything?' 'Not yet. Does it matter?' 'Yea, it kinda does.' 'Why?' 'Cause it's just real nice to know that you are buying presents for people who don't buy them for you when you could've spent that money on Hannah, or someone else.' 'I bought that shit A MONTH ago. I was planning on taking my last 3 checks and buy little presents with them. And I would've had more money to buy presents, but EVERYBODY wanted money from me.' 'Well, that was just unrealistic this year. you spent AT LEAST 50 dollars on that shit.' 'No. It was ON SALE! That's why I got it.' 'W/e, I'm just sick of always looking out for you and yours when you don't.' 'W/E DUDE. I'M JUST THE BIGGEST PIECE OF DOGG SHIT AND I ONLY THINK OF MYSELF.' 'W/E just drop it.'
By then I was in tears. It hurt my feelings VERY bad, and pissed me the FUCK OFF! I'm sick of being the ONLY fucking person paying the bills. Or even worried about them. Not to mention, they borrow money off me ALL the time, and DO NOT fucking pay me back. If I borrow money, or go to buy something off them, I don't even get credit for the money THEY borrowed from me. No, I HAVE to pay it back to them.
Tracy started texting me, YET AGAIN, to call G-Ma Debbie, and I just FREAKED OUT on her. I felt bad, but I really wasn't in the mood. Trish came over like 5 minutes and decided smoke with me and then to take me to work. So, I called the guy that usually takes me, and told him I had a ride. And she gave me a couple dollars and took me to McDonald's.
Then I'm at work and Josh is steady trying to get me to go on a date with his friend Jeff that works with us. I kept saying no because I don't know this guy and I don't really like people spending money on me.
Well yesterday at work, Jeff asked me himself if I'd like to go to dinner, and I told him the same thing. I don't like people spending money on me and I don't really know you. He said something about me being independent, and I siad it's not really independence, I just feel wrong taking someone's money. I didn't even want my ex, even though we were together, to buy me shoes or clothes. But I guess I kind of agreed to go to the movies tonight with him and Josh... :-/