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Ok so. I need to get this all out. This is all for her.
Katy loveofmylife, kk, kdawg, my sister, my best friend .....
I dont even know where to start. I love you more than my own life istelf. I care about you more than anything in this world and without you I would not be me. Ive known you for as long as I can remember and in that time youve become that one person to me. Everyone has that one person that makes them smile even when all they want to do is cry, that one person who can make the worst day the best just by looking at you, that one person who gives you butterflies when you talk even for the 1000th time, That one person whose smiles brightens the room and whose spirit can never be crushed ... that one person who is unbelievably extraordinary. Youre that person to me. Youre my angel that God sent down from heaven to be with me as my best friend and make all my worries wash away with just one simple " i love you". Your voice brings me this comfort and makes me feel like everything will be okay even when I know it wont be. When I talk to you, its like a release from reality .... tie doesnt exist. And in the moments Im with you ..... nothing else matters. I dont know how you do that but Im so glad you do. Weve had some absolutely wonderful experienced together and some of the worst of my life. But through it all youve stood by my side and remained my best friend, my love. You have this radiance in you ... this bright light that shines everytime I look at you. Youre full of spirit and life. And even though your heart holds so much pain and disbelief ... you hold your head up high and face life everyday with a smile on your face. I wish I could be more like you. Youre everything anyone could ever ask for in a person, a friend, a love, a soulmate. I am the luckiest guy on the earth to have you as mybest friend. Without you ... I wouldnt be alive today. Youve done things for me that you dont even know .... youve kept me going when all I wanted to do was quit. When I was in tears, with that barrell in my mouth ..... you took my heart in your hands and pieced it all back together.You made me whole again ... you made me right. Youre my only reason for living, youre the only thing that keeps me going everyday. Everytime I want to quite, everytime I think about giving up .... I picture your face, your beauty, your undying love for life and your search for utter happiness and your unbelievable strength and I realize ... I can do this. I can conquer my problems. Your are the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes on. You have it all. Your a blondy (at heart and in the hair), you have an amazing, drop dead perfect body, your tan, your deep brown eyes are like the door to your soul, your lips make me want to sit and watch you talk, your ass, while smaller than mine...is still hot as fuck. haha. Youre just so perfect. Not to mention your kind, gentle soul, your yearling for love heart, and your mind. Youve been scarred ... youve been hurt, youve been broken. Your hearts been repared yet it still has the scars ... the traces of pain. Your soul has a missing part ... a missing person, a missing friend. But you are still more whole inside than anyone Ive ever met. No matter what life throws at you ... you take it, you deal with it and you make the best out of every situation and you do it all wiith a smile on your face, your head held high and your beauty never dies. Ive seen the guys drool over you, I know you could have pretty much anyone if you took the risk and let them in .... but I know youre looking for that special guy ... the one to come and make everything right .... your knight in shining armor. Remember our song baby ... " and I'll be, better when Im older, I'll be the greatest man of your life" No matter what happens in life no matter where the path leads us, I will never let go of you ... I will never let you slip out of my reach. You mean everything to me .... youre my everything. Youre my best friend in the world and you mean more to me than anything. I just cant explain it. Your unreal. I want you to know how amazing you are and I dont want you to ever doubt how incredible you are inside and out. Kaitlin Breanne Cole .... youre the best person Ive ever met, my angel sent from heaven. My reason to go on living with this pain. So this entry was for you .... and everything youve ever done for me. You have left a mark on my heart and on my soul and i can never thank you enough for that. I love you katy cole. thank you.
and for all of you who read that and think Im in love with Katy, youre wrong. She is my best friend in the world and If you think I like her like that then I guess you just dont understand.....
RIP Kolton Drake Dreverton and Drake Kolton Dreverton.
FLNL ... we live each day for you.
I love you and miss you my brothers.