Time for something new...
I always hope that I'll come up with a cool idea to write about here or that something interesting will have happened in my life worth sharing...but alas, life is the same old thing these days.
I've begun the job search thing again since I haven't heard anything about my application for the teaching thing in Dallas and I would have received a letter by now for the next step if I was going to have the opportunity to interview, so that is a bummer.
I had gotten all excited about the idea of teaching and having holidays, that it's hard for me to look for other things since I have no real idea of what I want to do. I know that I'd like to do wedding planning or parties and such, but I have no idea how you really break into that field with out experience, so I'm at a loss right now.
I do know however that I can't wait until Christmastime this year. Not only because it's my favorite time of year, but also because at that point I won't have this job anymore and I'll have had to find something new...anything new.
I also know that I can't wait to have the chance to start a new year. This year has been the hardest and most lonely year of my life and I'm ready to move on. I'm tired of being tired of life. Of living each week just waiting for the weekend again which mostly consists of me just laying in my bed watching sports and movies all weekend, but anything is better than dragging myself to work for a ministry I love, but for a job I don't fit. Can I do my job, yes it seems so, at least my boss and co-workers think so. Yet, I am always in fear that I'm going to forget something or it's all going to fall apart and it will be my fault. I stress out over problems that were in the works before I got there and things I cannot fix, but wish I could so that things would be easier for whomever takes over my position.
I'm ready to laugh more, to relax more, to just spend time with friends doing nothing important, instead of seeing a couple here and there once a month with a sense of being rushed since I try to fit in seeing so many people when I'm town for a day or two.
I want to feel like I home for once when I walk in the door of my apartment. When I leave work, I feel like I'm just coming here to sleep and watch tv. With a lack of furniture and roommates or friends nearby, it just feels like a waiting room. I've known since February that I wasn't staying here, so at this point I feel like I've overstayed my welcome and it's time to move on.
I'm ready for a new chapter to share with friends and family. Life, Laughter, and Love....are the things I've finally learned not to take for granted. That's reason enough for me to be thankful for this detour in my life...it's taught me alot about myself...but I am ready to move on....
I've begun the job search thing again since I haven't heard anything about my application for the teaching thing in Dallas and I would have received a letter by now for the next step if I was going to have the opportunity to interview, so that is a bummer.
I had gotten all excited about the idea of teaching and having holidays, that it's hard for me to look for other things since I have no real idea of what I want to do. I know that I'd like to do wedding planning or parties and such, but I have no idea how you really break into that field with out experience, so I'm at a loss right now.
I do know however that I can't wait until Christmastime this year. Not only because it's my favorite time of year, but also because at that point I won't have this job anymore and I'll have had to find something new...anything new.
I also know that I can't wait to have the chance to start a new year. This year has been the hardest and most lonely year of my life and I'm ready to move on. I'm tired of being tired of life. Of living each week just waiting for the weekend again which mostly consists of me just laying in my bed watching sports and movies all weekend, but anything is better than dragging myself to work for a ministry I love, but for a job I don't fit. Can I do my job, yes it seems so, at least my boss and co-workers think so. Yet, I am always in fear that I'm going to forget something or it's all going to fall apart and it will be my fault. I stress out over problems that were in the works before I got there and things I cannot fix, but wish I could so that things would be easier for whomever takes over my position.
I'm ready to laugh more, to relax more, to just spend time with friends doing nothing important, instead of seeing a couple here and there once a month with a sense of being rushed since I try to fit in seeing so many people when I'm town for a day or two.
I want to feel like I home for once when I walk in the door of my apartment. When I leave work, I feel like I'm just coming here to sleep and watch tv. With a lack of furniture and roommates or friends nearby, it just feels like a waiting room. I've known since February that I wasn't staying here, so at this point I feel like I've overstayed my welcome and it's time to move on.
I'm ready for a new chapter to share with friends and family. Life, Laughter, and Love....are the things I've finally learned not to take for granted. That's reason enough for me to be thankful for this detour in my life...it's taught me alot about myself...but I am ready to move on....