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to forget is the opiate of humanity. well sure, even opium has it's drawbacks, eh? though forgetfulness is less voluntary. Like any other form of physical fitness. there's work to be done, predispositions of ability to do work, and time management. often, people don't mind being forgetful. 'till you forget something you wanted right then. the usual fits with inconvenience. but when it comes down to it, someone has to remember. everything. everything forgotten is a step backwards. each insignificant memory is valuable. doesn't mean everything is useful all the time, of course reality is quite to the contrary. but everything everywhere is progress all the time, one way or another. experience. evolution. the life and death of existence. consequences, terrible and puny, of being alive in any fashion you choose. to forget is to die, and i'd like to know of somebody who ever existed who does not want to die. of course it's not usual to want death to be final. it's just average fantasy for relief. salvation. maybe you ride roller-coasters or smoke cigarettes. might be healthier to laugh at jokes, or maybe cocaine makes you forget about death. at least at first. i think everything people are made of is pretty simple and common. like you could say the fabric of the universe has to be, just to be. so maybe it's being so simple that finds the need to find every way to be complex. complex, mysterious, "supernatural". as if anything that exists could be supernatural as opposed to just outside of your momentary ken. but something has to be outside of your understanding at all times. is there anyone who lives beyond having something to reach for? people often create complexity out of almost nothing just to invent something "significant" to hold onto. you do need that complexity like you need any nutrition, and you can often live on less than you think. so then it comes down to goals for your creation of life. it might hardly matter sometimes what you distract yourself with for awhile, but down the line you always come to the point of dissatisfaction with a poor creation. the dazzle becomes insignificant. it's no wonder so many like drugs that force them to like the insignificant. it can be quite suicidal to become too bored. i'd venture to proclaim it's more dangerous to sustain boredom than to be horribly overwhelmed. you can train for anything, you figure it out, so you might train your memory and forget just those things that upset you and keep your idealism. I guess all I regret comes down to the concept of "discipline" being hard for me to grasp. how to train myself is a skill I must learn and not forget. I've already forgotten what I just wrote.