Mitigation
So. Had my appointment with CAPS. Yeah. It was very uncomfortable. I always feel judged when I tell people about my symptoms and the problems I've been having from it, but I've never told anyone about how I feel like people don't believe me or that they thinnk I'm exagerating. When I told her that she pretty much said that it's a bit suspicious. "I mean a level 5 6 or 7 pains all the time? Sounds uncomfortable." She says skeptically. Yeah, no kidding, that's why I'm here. I just, I dunno. I worry too much, that's part of it. You know how you feel something or see something all the time, but when called upon to give an example of it, you got nothing? Exactly it. I had trouble finding examples of giving a good detail of everything. It sucked! And then I felt like we were rushing a bit, just to fill out some questionnaire. I mean, I get she wants to cover all sides to get a good picture of how things are working, but it just felt rushed.
How can I bring myself to go to one of the dr.s she gave me? People who specialize in pain management? On one side, I'm excited, hopeful even. But on the other, I fel like they're just going to dismiss me as some poor little rich girl who wants attention. I don't think I could handle anymore skepticism.
Like that girl who was on the NatGeo channel. She spontaneously bleeds and there's no wound or anything to explain it. People thinks she's faking or her mom is. Just because they don't understand it or they dont have an explanation. How conceited and pretentious is it to think that human kind can understand and does understand every phenomena everywhere. Are you kidding me?
Whatever.
I was reading this sort of cartoon book for my history class an all of the expressions were perfect, I want to make a mood theme on it, but I'm not sure how. We'll see. I already have all of the pictures picked out for the moods. I just need to scan and cut.
Argh. I should chill. I'm prolly just being paprnoid about the appointment. Reading into it a bit too much. Ok.
How can I bring myself to go to one of the dr.s she gave me? People who specialize in pain management? On one side, I'm excited, hopeful even. But on the other, I fel like they're just going to dismiss me as some poor little rich girl who wants attention. I don't think I could handle anymore skepticism.
Like that girl who was on the NatGeo channel. She spontaneously bleeds and there's no wound or anything to explain it. People thinks she's faking or her mom is. Just because they don't understand it or they dont have an explanation. How conceited and pretentious is it to think that human kind can understand and does understand every phenomena everywhere. Are you kidding me?
Whatever.
I was reading this sort of cartoon book for my history class an all of the expressions were perfect, I want to make a mood theme on it, but I'm not sure how. We'll see. I already have all of the pictures picked out for the moods. I just need to scan and cut.
Argh. I should chill. I'm prolly just being paprnoid about the appointment. Reading into it a bit too much. Ok.