where there is no war, and the children sing... love is all around... it's the only thing...
"we really want you to join the family... but.... there's alot of resentment"
"If you want to join again, you'll have to work at it"
"We'll just have to say... Jill you're being impatient... Jill you're being selfish... Jill you're being demanding..."
"You've had you're own resentments... do you want us to tell you what they are?"
"You had you're own burdens to bear... do you want us to tell you what THEY are?"
"You're going to have to try harder.
1. If they want me in the family, but I'm going to have to work hard to get back in... What's the point of trying? Why don't I just give up and stay by myself in my little room of solitude?
2. The fact that none of them say anything to my face, yet my mother now says that they'll tell me things is absurd.
3. how DARE they think they know my burdens and resentments... When they shunned me for the last two years, they expect to still remember what I went through? The fact that mother thinks I tell her everything, still.
4. Fuck them.
"No mother. I don't want to know what my resentments are."
Jill XOXO