pretending...
Get up in the morning and try to remember the smile that should be on my face. Remember all in my life for which I am grateful, my family and I are all healthy, so very important. I am well fed, financially stable, and have a garden giving me clean food every day.
I'm ashamed to admit it, but there are days when I'm just pretending, because it's the right thing do, because nobody wants to be around a whiner, because just because. Sometimes I think my heart, so many times broken will never heal, that my brain so many times scrambled will always be confused, yet other moments I regain connection and I don't have to pretend. I can simply relax into being content.