GOOD BYE
This does not apply to long distance people, but the people who were my "friends"
I've been thinking about this for a while
I'm gonna be honest with you guys because I used to value our friendship. Livejournal started with Ana, then I made one back in the day when we went to art class and I met Dan. Then Sarah got one. LJ back then was a friendship thing, for me it represented the good things in our friendship. By telling other people about it it was a sign that you were a part of our group, "the crew", it meant we valued your friendship. Back then, for me, LJ was a happy place. When we started to split as a group it was a way to keep us together, then it turned to a way to piss each other off, now it has become a way to brag about what fun you're having and to push us away, outcast us. I'm sorry but I am not going to keep reading your posts as I doubt you read mine. You have made it clear that some of us are not part of your new group and you don't want us to be, and do you know what? I don't want to be anymore. I'm not going to be your audience because quite frankly I don't give a shit, because of the way you have treated me by reading your ljs I feel like I'm insulting you but most of all myself, it actually makes me angry and has been for some time. You can have your new LJ and you can have what it stands for but I'm not gonna be your audience anymore. This may suprise you, I'm sorry if it does but maybe you havnt noticed the changes, and if you have and you love them, good for you, I'm glad your happy with the time you're having, the people you've been and the people you are. I don't know you anymore but the way I've been treated, by a few of you in particular I'll be glad if you look back and think about things, think about what things were and how they've been fucked up. I know I'm responsible, but other people are a lot more responsible than me (you know who you are and I doubt you feel crap but one day maybe you will).
I'm probably gonna start a new journal, and its gonna be what it was to begin with, with no bad feeling because thats what I always wanted. If you honestly want to read it, tell me and I'll give you the new address, I'll understand if you don't.
The beginning of this journal still means alot to me.
I've been thinking about this for a while
I'm gonna be honest with you guys because I used to value our friendship. Livejournal started with Ana, then I made one back in the day when we went to art class and I met Dan. Then Sarah got one. LJ back then was a friendship thing, for me it represented the good things in our friendship. By telling other people about it it was a sign that you were a part of our group, "the crew", it meant we valued your friendship. Back then, for me, LJ was a happy place. When we started to split as a group it was a way to keep us together, then it turned to a way to piss each other off, now it has become a way to brag about what fun you're having and to push us away, outcast us. I'm sorry but I am not going to keep reading your posts as I doubt you read mine. You have made it clear that some of us are not part of your new group and you don't want us to be, and do you know what? I don't want to be anymore. I'm not going to be your audience because quite frankly I don't give a shit, because of the way you have treated me by reading your ljs I feel like I'm insulting you but most of all myself, it actually makes me angry and has been for some time. You can have your new LJ and you can have what it stands for but I'm not gonna be your audience anymore. This may suprise you, I'm sorry if it does but maybe you havnt noticed the changes, and if you have and you love them, good for you, I'm glad your happy with the time you're having, the people you've been and the people you are. I don't know you anymore but the way I've been treated, by a few of you in particular I'll be glad if you look back and think about things, think about what things were and how they've been fucked up. I know I'm responsible, but other people are a lot more responsible than me (you know who you are and I doubt you feel crap but one day maybe you will).
I'm probably gonna start a new journal, and its gonna be what it was to begin with, with no bad feeling because thats what I always wanted. If you honestly want to read it, tell me and I'll give you the new address, I'll understand if you don't.
The beginning of this journal still means alot to me.