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Wow night time again here in arizona...beautiful sunsets but sometimes lonely i dont want to leave this place but i know i have to.... i wish i could talk the kids into moving here but it will never happen. They have their friends and lives now...i wish i could go on with mine soon but it will take some time for that.
I want to thank u tho Az for making me see things in a different light ...its calm here and quiet and so cold at home...in more ways than one. i love the kids and would never leave them...sometimes i wish i could but i'm all they have and i cant be selfish now can i?
Someday i will come here with my family...maybe a new husband ...but i dont see that anytime in the future thats for sure. But would i come if my mom and dad werent here? Not likely but its a good thought and a good dream to have, i dont have many left but i'm hoping...someday...
Anyway i have to stop whining and get back to reality i guess...the kids and the baby with me like it should be...i do love my life if only i could change just a few things it would be the best life ...for sure.
Oh well thats the shit huh? I'll be back soon ...
I want to thank u tho Az for making me see things in a different light ...its calm here and quiet and so cold at home...in more ways than one. i love the kids and would never leave them...sometimes i wish i could but i'm all they have and i cant be selfish now can i?
Someday i will come here with my family...maybe a new husband ...but i dont see that anytime in the future thats for sure. But would i come if my mom and dad werent here? Not likely but its a good thought and a good dream to have, i dont have many left but i'm hoping...someday...
Anyway i have to stop whining and get back to reality i guess...the kids and the baby with me like it should be...i do love my life if only i could change just a few things it would be the best life ...for sure.
Oh well thats the shit huh? I'll be back soon ...