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[rosechaton]

I think I react to mono weirdly. I go a week sleeping 12-14 hours a night and not doing anything during the day to not being able to sleep for 2 nights in a row. Then right back to the sleeping a lot. I should be in bed fast asleep right now. But no... I keep thinking someone is going to be outside... doing something. This is due to a bad dream I started having when I actually started going to sleep. I left my water in my room and now I can not swallow. The chinchilla sounds to be having a great time all by itself in the dark. Tonight was incredibly boring. I sat around waiting for a phone call that never came. I do not understand people that say they are going to do something and then disappear off the face of the earth. Oh well the whole house is clean now. Tomorrow I am going to an open house for my cousin and her husband who are leaving this week to join the peace core. Then Monday is the annual go over to my uncles and sit by the pool day. Too bad I can not really get near my family either of these days seeing as my mother thinks I am still contagious. Pretty much all of my symptoms are gone. My glands are still a little swollen but they have gone down. I want to move. I want to get away from this boring place. There is no one new to meet and nothing new to do. I wish I could have made it out to California this summer like I planned. But no.. my job situation had to get all screwed up and I could not get a car. If I had still been working, things probably would have been 10 times different than they are right now. I probably never would have started hanging out with the people that I did, seeing as my sleep schedule would not have been the same as theirs. Interesting. Funny how one aspect of you life changes and it could forever change everything in your life and future. I do not know where to start looking for a job after I am off the couch and done being sick. I have put in applications just about everywhere. There has to be someplace that is hiring that you do not need experience to do. I wish my only experience was not in an office job. It is pretty much impossible to get those jobs unless you have connections. Plus seeing as they are all probably in the same bit of trouble as the last company I worked for, they will not be looking for anyone new. There is the ugliest bug I have ever seen in my whole entire life wandering around the den. I normally do not have any problems with bugs but this thing is driving me crazy. It keeps getting closer and I keep seeing it out of the corner of my eye. haha It is funny how sometimes once you start typing on what you thought was going to be about a 2 sentence entry you can just keep rambling on and on. I am sure no one but me will actually get to this point reading it. There are only 4 people on line on my buddy list. Which is sad. One is my cousin who I do not talk to on line. Another is on there phone so they are not actually there and the other 2 are always on but always away. I really do need to find something to do with my summer and a way to make money. I am getting really sick of just sitting around. Now I know what those of you with jobs are thinking.. that you wish you were in my position. But you don't. You really don't. I mean I enjoy being lazy just as much as everyone else but not to the point where I feel completely useless. I want to know where that bug went. I can not put my feet down. It is sad. oo oo I forgot. Happy note. I am getting a phone next week! finally people will be able to get a hold of me. I think I should probably end the entry with that seeing as it is happy and if anyone did decide to read all of this they are probably waiting for it to be done. and are probably about as bored as I was when I wrote it. let me know if you want my new number.

<3 Maygen Suzanne