TGIF? I'm not sure?
Its friday, and walking across campus this morning the results of the new "thirsty thursday" were prevalent in all directions. I love to relax with a nice drink now and then, but its rare now for me at the ripe old age of twenty one to have to fend off any strong desires of getting completely shitfaced...epsecially on a Thursday night! This morning is dreary and tired just like the students brave, and sober enough to trudge to class today. I'm in the type of mood where I'd love to just be alone for awhile, write my in real journal, maybe watch Ever After, or take a nap. I'm tired again of having to share my life with one hundred other girls, I'm tired of this campus. I want to live an apartment in the city somewhere with strung lights and sheer panel curtains, and lots of floor pillows and vintage furniture that I dug up somewhere. I want to have to clip coupons and shop on the street for organic fruits and veggies, or brew a pot of tea and sit down and write or read an amazing book. I'm tired of my messy, three person room where I don't even know what has happened to all of my clothing, much less how to make my way through all the shit to my desk. I'm tired of eating cereal with soymilk for dinner because it was chicken and mashed potatoes again, or meatloaf with no option for salad, or veggies, or anything without meat. Or even a place where I can do my yoga and actually concentrate and relax without feeling like there are people watching me to see what I'm wearing. I'm ready to live on my own agenda and to have my own life even if it means not having very much.
On another note, this weekend I have a ton of stuff to do, not limited to but including:
Practicing
Making Reeds
Flim Music paper
lots of Yoga
Reading for Caribbean History
Summer Music Applications\ Record a CD
Organize my ROOM! Its driving me crazy...
I'm nervous, I have to go ask our orchestra director for the comments from my concerto audition. I never really explained what happened with it, and I don't know if I can but the basic story is that I played a great audition and both I and my teacher as well as other professors were suprised to see that I didn't go to the finals. So now we're trying to figure out what could have happened... Its pretty stressful. On top of that, I have a less than perfect relationship with this director from the start, and I've been considering discussing it with the Dean of the School of Music... its just hard to know what the right thing to do is.
On another note, this weekend I have a ton of stuff to do, not limited to but including:
Practicing
Making Reeds
Flim Music paper
lots of Yoga
Reading for Caribbean History
Summer Music Applications\ Record a CD
Organize my ROOM! Its driving me crazy...
I'm nervous, I have to go ask our orchestra director for the comments from my concerto audition. I never really explained what happened with it, and I don't know if I can but the basic story is that I played a great audition and both I and my teacher as well as other professors were suprised to see that I didn't go to the finals. So now we're trying to figure out what could have happened... Its pretty stressful. On top of that, I have a less than perfect relationship with this director from the start, and I've been considering discussing it with the Dean of the School of Music... its just hard to know what the right thing to do is.