tears that could fill up the vintage fishbowl
I am here, at the shop under the fucking flourescent lights with nowhere to hide just crying and sniffling and thinking of you. My entire heart hurts right now, but I don't know if it is because I'm sorry for what I said to you or afraid that it is all really true. Probably both.
I don't know what to think, or say. I keep trying to stop myself from caring and pull the "you're 21 you shouldn't be worried about this type of thing" card. I am worried, and there isn't much that I can do to change that, and sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have to. I think that is the reason that I am so upset...
Will there ever really be someone who just knows and understands all of the things about me, is that even possible?You would think that with all of the hundreds of millions of people in the world that it could happen. Don't you ever wonder if there is someone who would appear in front of you on the worst day you'd ever had, without knowing that you need them more than you needed anything else at that moment. Don't you wish that your boyfriend knew that your favorite tea was peach and that he would love you even more for it just because it was one of the small pieces that made you who you were. Everyone has wished something so hard and for so long and hoped that someone would make it come true for them because they loved them, everyone has things like these that they hope for.
I don't know if everyone finds this magical person for them, or even if anyone ever has, but I know that is all I want. There are so many things weighing on me right now, I can't begin to talk about all of them.
I don't know what to think, or say. I keep trying to stop myself from caring and pull the "you're 21 you shouldn't be worried about this type of thing" card. I am worried, and there isn't much that I can do to change that, and sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have to. I think that is the reason that I am so upset...
Will there ever really be someone who just knows and understands all of the things about me, is that even possible?You would think that with all of the hundreds of millions of people in the world that it could happen. Don't you ever wonder if there is someone who would appear in front of you on the worst day you'd ever had, without knowing that you need them more than you needed anything else at that moment. Don't you wish that your boyfriend knew that your favorite tea was peach and that he would love you even more for it just because it was one of the small pieces that made you who you were. Everyone has wished something so hard and for so long and hoped that someone would make it come true for them because they loved them, everyone has things like these that they hope for.
I don't know if everyone finds this magical person for them, or even if anyone ever has, but I know that is all I want. There are so many things weighing on me right now, I can't begin to talk about all of them.