HUmph
Yesterday Aaron moved in his dorm. I was really excited for him until I got to the campus. It all kind of hit me at once. The dorm is co-ed (i didnt know this, We's roomate is a stupid druggie). I realized he's not 5 min away anymore. It was just sad. All of a sudden I felt so little ad realized that I am not going to have the same expierences as him anymore.. (if that makes since) I felt totally out of his world and very distant, I wanted to throw up. It was all I could do to hold back tears until Micheal, Matt, Matt and Farley left the room. But then ofcourse I talked to Aaron and had a lil cry and he made me feel way better! lol He is ONLY 20 min away. I can drive there. He can drive here.. I will see him for our date nights and I know he will enjoy campus life. I also realized i DO NOT want to live in a dorm.. EWW... Aaron's is nice and he will probably love it but def not for me... Its smaller than my room now it seems like and it feels like a classroom. But oh well. His school starts thursday, its all exciting and frightening.. i am worried about what will happen next but I am very happy to be with him right now.. I love him and i know what ever happens he will be there for me.. xoxo ainslee