WoW!
Words can not describe the kind of mood I am in. Today was good. I drove to guitar, and listened to bluegrass music for 30 min ARGH!! And then Aaron was outside and said he was coming to my house b/c he didnt have small group and his parents said he could and la dee dah.. so i listened to trance on the way home and that always puts me in a lovely mood lol so i got really hyper and junk.. but yea.. today i just realized how uninhibited i am with aaron. lol i never really thought about how much i dont think about stuff before i say or do it. like wait if i say this will he think i am retarded.. lol i wish i could be like that with everyone. and its shcoking and kind of relieveing that it doesnt run him off i geuss would be the way to put it. i have never had anyone treat me like that.. i cant remember truely being my self around someone.. i usually end up chainging myself in the least bit just so i can relate to them a little bit more... which isnt usually a good thing. but yea i realized that and it made me really happy for seom reason...
next week is aaron's 18th b day i have to go buy his presents sometime. it kind of makes me sad.. i really dont like thinking about our ages just b/c i never think of him as older than me and i never think of how it looks to other people but i started to today.. he is going to be 18 with a 15 year old.. argh i wish we were older. i am scared about him starting college. i am not sure what it will do to us. i am scared about if we will have to go through the same crap we went through when we first started dating with the whole.. holy crap senior and freshman... but atleast now i have friends who understand what we have and dont not like aaron.. ahh! ok well yea... summer is going by so quickly and i am scared for school to start.. everything iss going to change and it makes me want to cry thinking of it.. argh... well i geuss i had better go. XoXo ainslee
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next week is aaron's 18th b day i have to go buy his presents sometime. it kind of makes me sad.. i really dont like thinking about our ages just b/c i never think of him as older than me and i never think of how it looks to other people but i started to today.. he is going to be 18 with a 15 year old.. argh i wish we were older. i am scared about him starting college. i am not sure what it will do to us. i am scared about if we will have to go through the same crap we went through when we first started dating with the whole.. holy crap senior and freshman... but atleast now i have friends who understand what we have and dont not like aaron.. ahh! ok well yea... summer is going by so quickly and i am scared for school to start.. everything iss going to change and it makes me want to cry thinking of it.. argh... well i geuss i had better go. XoXo ainslee
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