livid.
so fucking betrayed. i always thought you didn't like me, should have just been straight up instead of creating unecessary drama that i DO NOT need right now at all, and sabotaging my life.
i feel like i'm going to lose my mind, or that i am, or have, i'm not even sure right now. things have just been fucked up wayyyyyy more than they needed to be.
i am trying to remain calm and not say or do things i will regret.
on a side note, i now feel like no one is who i thought they would be, this is now too many times someone who i thought they were, turned around and totally weren't like that anymore and in turn have hurt me. i feel like, i don't want to see anyone ever again, and live in my house and rely on only myself...cause i don't know when someone is going to pull something like this on me again. i've turned bitter, it's true. i've turned bitter and completely lost faith and trust in almost everyone i know, even if they haven't done anything to me yet. i absolutely feel like i just want to rely on myself now, i don't want to share anything with anyone ever again. this is too much shit that has been layed upon me in such a short amount of time.
i suppose i'm contradicting myself with what i just wrote, because i am putting all my thoughts and feelings out there for my friends to see. i won't do this anymore.
i feel like i'm going to lose my mind, or that i am, or have, i'm not even sure right now. things have just been fucked up wayyyyyy more than they needed to be.
i am trying to remain calm and not say or do things i will regret.
on a side note, i now feel like no one is who i thought they would be, this is now too many times someone who i thought they were, turned around and totally weren't like that anymore and in turn have hurt me. i feel like, i don't want to see anyone ever again, and live in my house and rely on only myself...cause i don't know when someone is going to pull something like this on me again. i've turned bitter, it's true. i've turned bitter and completely lost faith and trust in almost everyone i know, even if they haven't done anything to me yet. i absolutely feel like i just want to rely on myself now, i don't want to share anything with anyone ever again. this is too much shit that has been layed upon me in such a short amount of time.
i suppose i'm contradicting myself with what i just wrote, because i am putting all my thoughts and feelings out there for my friends to see. i won't do this anymore.