It was the garden that did it, father...and Dickon, and Mary...

[rosebud673]

"Mary Lennox, for as long as you will have us, we are yours, Colin and I, and this is your house, and this, my lovely child, is your garden."

So I am torturing myself by listening to The Secret Garden (I haven't listened to it since September).

I miss it...

I wish I could be who I was then.

Wow, this sounds exactly like Char's entry. Sorry Char.

I felt loved there.

I want to be the same person, and I try.

But it's not gonna happen.

Sometimes I just lie down and pretend that there is sun outside and the book I'm holding is my script and tomorrow is another day at SPACE.

Then I open my eyes and see the snow, and see The Odyssey, and realize that it's been 5 months and I still haven't gotten over it.

Ugh.

Sorry, this is stupid...