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Been doing some thinking....
So I work at a local Middle School helping the horn section out. And these students are the smartest in the district. If they get something wrong they FREAK..right so I thought this was a crazy thing to happen...Turns out I am the same way- If I am told I am wrong, I mess up, I get all upset and flustered because I am a perfectionist. This has been happening more and more recently. Piano- asked us to harmonize in jazz, and i ended up freaking because i dont do jazz and Brevin was like wtf? Then in my lesson today Basler was fixing my embouchure- aka changing all the work I have done in the past year :( and I kept getting flustered because I couldn't grasp it! so i started crying..basler was like WHY ARE YOU CRYING- which totally didn't help. He made me feel bad for crying, like some parents do with their children.
It kinda upsets me that I am like this- I cannot accept defeat.
Trying out for Drum Major, OFFICIALLY! Taking history a semester later, WOO! hoping for the best on this one.
Tons of work
The boy situation makes me sick. Nothing significant to say except I manage to find guys who are like unable to accept NO as an answer- NO I do not want to date you, NO I do not have time to see you. NO I will never be comfortable with the fact that you are 24 and I am 19!
This semester- kinda rough, unexpected- But I have a feeling that no semester from here on out will be unstressful
whatev
my neighbor is moaning- I hear it thru the wall!
So I work at a local Middle School helping the horn section out. And these students are the smartest in the district. If they get something wrong they FREAK..right so I thought this was a crazy thing to happen...Turns out I am the same way- If I am told I am wrong, I mess up, I get all upset and flustered because I am a perfectionist. This has been happening more and more recently. Piano- asked us to harmonize in jazz, and i ended up freaking because i dont do jazz and Brevin was like wtf? Then in my lesson today Basler was fixing my embouchure- aka changing all the work I have done in the past year :( and I kept getting flustered because I couldn't grasp it! so i started crying..basler was like WHY ARE YOU CRYING- which totally didn't help. He made me feel bad for crying, like some parents do with their children.
It kinda upsets me that I am like this- I cannot accept defeat.
Trying out for Drum Major, OFFICIALLY! Taking history a semester later, WOO! hoping for the best on this one.
Tons of work
The boy situation makes me sick. Nothing significant to say except I manage to find guys who are like unable to accept NO as an answer- NO I do not want to date you, NO I do not have time to see you. NO I will never be comfortable with the fact that you are 24 and I am 19!
This semester- kinda rough, unexpected- But I have a feeling that no semester from here on out will be unstressful
whatev
my neighbor is moaning- I hear it thru the wall!