Complications
well tonight has definately been interesting and low-key for the most part. it has been nice to have calypso back home. it's as if he was never gone, we have more or less fallen into the same swing of things. that's a good sign for our relationship this fall when i'll be the one "leaving" for college. unfortunately, calypso is really frustrated and bummed out about the old guard assignment--it starts tomorrow. he is really dreading it and regretting the decision to join. it really upsets me, b/c i know that he did it for me...and that my pushing him to be closer to me when i'm at school is the root cause of his misery. i've never seen him like this before, and i am completely helpless in doing anything about it. i just try to sit there quietly and provide whatever comfort/support i can muster. sure i have given him a hard time about wanting to be a ranger and everything, but i never fully grasped the full situatin here. now i've seen it and it pains me to know that he will be hating life every minute until he can find a way out of his contract. the bad thing is, we don't know if that's possible. it's the army afterall...and he says if he drops or "fails" out of old guard then he gets sent on international duty. this would mean he would basically be sent to korea, which is bad, b/c that equals NEVER seeing each other. i really hope that once his dad gets back and sgt. ruiz (his recruiter) returns that something can get worked out. i am almost wanting him to join the rangers at this point...it sucks seeing him so angry and upset. i really wish i could rewind time to the point when i was really rooting for the old guard. i must say it was very selfish of me. i should've been thinking of his happiness and not mine. i don't know what to do about this whole situation, i feel quite helpless and out of my league. i don't know when he's reporting tomorrow, but i asked him to call me first. we have no idea what is going to be happening...whether he'll be staying at ft. meyer overnight or be coming home. it's all way too much, i can't help but feel at fault here. things have just been difficult the past few weeks, good and wonderful, but also difficult. i guess this is what a "grown-up" relationship is like?? well, we're going on 2.5 years now. amazin'. i must say that i love him w/ all my heart and soul.
next week is london for a week, yay! i signed up to work 3 days this week b/c i will be gone, but my boss didn't put me on the schedule, b/c she only ever needs me on sundays. my mom is pretty angry that i'm not working and that all i'm doing is slugging around the house watching movies, being on the computer, or hanging out w/ my friends. she really wants me to clean out my room and get ready for college. i just want to relax and not think so much on those life-altering chapters of my life. jeez, after beach week my sleeping schedule has really been wacked. i haven't been going to be until 3 in the morning and getting up around noon. oh--! and i registered for classes, online...we don't have to do it at the actual school, and registration lasts 2 weeks. i signed up for 5 classes, but i have no idea if i'll get all of them. just check my facebook account to see. but the good news about my classes is that mondays are my busiest days starting at 10:30 and ultimately ending by 2:45. tuesdays and thursdays i only have 2 classes, 9am-12:30. wednesdays and fridays i start at 10:30 and am out by 1:30 (or 12:30...don't remember). i still hafta call my roommate. and take the damn calc placement test even tho i've never taken calc and i'm not even taking a math this semester. anyways, it's bedtime.
next week is london for a week, yay! i signed up to work 3 days this week b/c i will be gone, but my boss didn't put me on the schedule, b/c she only ever needs me on sundays. my mom is pretty angry that i'm not working and that all i'm doing is slugging around the house watching movies, being on the computer, or hanging out w/ my friends. she really wants me to clean out my room and get ready for college. i just want to relax and not think so much on those life-altering chapters of my life. jeez, after beach week my sleeping schedule has really been wacked. i haven't been going to be until 3 in the morning and getting up around noon. oh--! and i registered for classes, online...we don't have to do it at the actual school, and registration lasts 2 weeks. i signed up for 5 classes, but i have no idea if i'll get all of them. just check my facebook account to see. but the good news about my classes is that mondays are my busiest days starting at 10:30 and ultimately ending by 2:45. tuesdays and thursdays i only have 2 classes, 9am-12:30. wednesdays and fridays i start at 10:30 and am out by 1:30 (or 12:30...don't remember). i still hafta call my roommate. and take the damn calc placement test even tho i've never taken calc and i'm not even taking a math this semester. anyways, it's bedtime.