Here's a fic that I am currently in love with, next up is a book recommendation, Haldir/Legolas fic, BTVS/West Wing crossover, and a QAF epic. Also, I still haven't figured out livejournal tags, so please bear with me. Now on with the show...
When I think of Spike/Buffy fanfic that tears you down and builds you back up, I think of Lizzerbeathan. She is one of the best Spike/Buffy fanfiction writers out there because she embraces the personalities of her characters; the positive and their faults. Justice Just Us begins at the season finale of Angel, during Team Angel's last battle against the Senior Partners. Lizzerbeathan has been a Spike/Buffy fan for a long time, and her love of the pairing is evident in her work. Located at
http://www.lizerrrbeathan.com/JusticeJustUs.html, this a long and involved fic. Once I started reading, I did not want to stop. Here's a snippet:
Buffy was pissed. She was angry. It was the kind that sat cold inside her, cold and steady like a tomb marking a past event, past by but still here and 'x' marks the spot and here she was, revisiting the grave of: 'oh no, not again...'
Vi had the troops gathered in the garden. Two hundred and twenty two slayers. Buffy hoped it would be enough. No amulet this time, no holy hotline...and best not to think about Spike.
Dawn was there to her right and had the scythe, The Slayer elemental ready for Buffy when needed. Dawn nodded to Buffy briefly, but didn't look any deeper into her sister. It was hard to look at Buffy when she was like this.
They were going to win. But they weren't all going to live. In this world at least. Buffy looked down at the stone tile of the veranda as she gathered her thoughts. She would be brief. She looked up and began.
"This isn't a rescue mission. This is about containment and justice. If, by the time we get to the center and there is anyone left...do not engage the vampires in battle...do not. Your natural instincts will lead you toward them and your blood lust will be kicking in...but do not engage them. The others on their crew are a misnomer at this point and not the objective. When my crew reaches the center they will be able to identify the vampire they have had a prior association with and he can relay to them, friend from foe. I repeat, no one stakes the blonde vampire, I am aware of slayers gathering stripes by staking notorious vamps and there will be no counting coup here...do it, I'll know it, and you will be sorry."
Beat. She turned dropped her voice a bit as she spoke to Vi:
"Vi...your group protects Spike..."
Vi nodded smiling a bit. "Sure...totally my pleasure..."
"The other one is mine..." Buffy's eyes turned steely as she stepped in front of Giles. Arms crossed in front, scythe in hand and waited.
I fell in love with this fic because of its attention to detail. Every character from Vi all the way to the Immortal plays an important role. I was left hanging and bereft at the end of AtS Season 5, with our four heroes fighting a horde of demons. I wondered what would come of them and this fic gives me an answer. Spike is a flawed hero, who continues on his journey to becoming a full actualized person. He is called on to sponsor Angel against those who would punish him for his deeds, and in doing so, Spike becomes a champion in his own right. In contrast, we see the Immortal, and a reincarnation of the First Slayer who want to see Spike killed more than anything. With the support of former scoobies and the potential slayers he helped trained in Sunnydale, Spike becomes an advocate. Afraid of hurting one another, Spike and Buffy's relationship progresses slowly but beautifully. In addition, this fiction spans years, from the creation of a new council, all the way to Spike and Buffy's children. I wholeheartedly recommend this fic with 4 bottles of Jameson's Whiskey. Please don't hesitate to leave the author feedback, and load your printer with paper, because this fic is definitely worth the trees.