convinced
I, for whatever reason, don't believe in my ability in so many levels. That's why I debate about grad school, doubt my ability to get accepted and do the work there. And if not grad school, then it's work or whatever. It's probably unreasonable because by all accounts, I should believe more in myself and my ability and be able show other people that.
I think right now I'm not exactly glad or grateful that I am taking seemingly overly demanding classes, but I think it's satisfying to know that if I can get through this quarter, then yes, I can do grad school. Honestly, grades usually don't really hold much meaning or sense of accomplishment in of itself because I'm conditioned to get good grades (B doesn't really count as a bad grade anymore) and I don't know, classes are just things I go through, maybe not always with a breeze, but it's not like I've ever really struggled.
Anyway, the point of writing this is I am finally convinced today that I can indeed do grad school and probably do it well. After all that stress and endless work/reading, I got an A on my crazy 21 page geography midterm. And like I said, grades don't really hold much meaning to me, it's my professor's comments that convinced me. The thing about grad school is that it'll probably be wayyyy harder than this, but I think I can handle the stress. Also, I have realized recently that I have become more and more adept at reading boring-ass articles.
So here's temporary a list of schools I'll be applying to for International development/economics or something along this line.
-U of Michigan
-Johns Hopkins
-American University
-OSU (for the MPA program as a fall back)
-University of Pittsburgh
I think right now I'm not exactly glad or grateful that I am taking seemingly overly demanding classes, but I think it's satisfying to know that if I can get through this quarter, then yes, I can do grad school. Honestly, grades usually don't really hold much meaning or sense of accomplishment in of itself because I'm conditioned to get good grades (B doesn't really count as a bad grade anymore) and I don't know, classes are just things I go through, maybe not always with a breeze, but it's not like I've ever really struggled.
Anyway, the point of writing this is I am finally convinced today that I can indeed do grad school and probably do it well. After all that stress and endless work/reading, I got an A on my crazy 21 page geography midterm. And like I said, grades don't really hold much meaning to me, it's my professor's comments that convinced me. The thing about grad school is that it'll probably be wayyyy harder than this, but I think I can handle the stress. Also, I have realized recently that I have become more and more adept at reading boring-ass articles.
So here's temporary a list of schools I'll be applying to for International development/economics or something along this line.
-U of Michigan
-Johns Hopkins
-American University
-OSU (for the MPA program as a fall back)
-University of Pittsburgh