peace at last
Finnaly, its over. no more homework or projects and grumpy teachers. I'm so happy. I took my biology exam today. i was so upset cause mr.s pfaffman ended up letting people use their notes at the last minutefor the exam and i didnt bring mine with me so i had to take it using my own knowledge. and to my surprise I got a big fat "D" on it. I was a little disturbed since I had prayed about it and I did study... but hey, what can you do.not everything in your life goes your way. so I'm over it.
I went to church tonight and God really spoke to my heart. (I love it when he does that unexpectedly) and He told me that I need to draw near to Him. I need to stop letting the devil bring me down by making me think I'm nothing and worthless. Cause God told me that he loves me so much, no matter what I have done or will do, he loves me the same. you know those little kids were there again, and during worship Joel did an alter call and asked for anyone who wanted to know God more or who just had something on their heart that they needed prayer for, to come forward so the pastor could pray for them. and wouldnt you know the only people to go forward were 2 of the little boys in the front. not a one of the teenagers went forward(out of like 20).that hit me hard. it seemed to me like God was saying, "thats what you should be doing, entering my kingdom with the heart of a child."
now I myself was praying and I felt God pulling on my heart and I knew I wanted to know God more but I didnt move. I dont know why... so towards the end of worship they did it again and I went forward and just fell to my knees and cryed out to God. I prayed so hard. and someone came over and prayed for me. by that time i wasnt the only one up there who needed prayer.
but i have just been so weak lately. i just havent been wanting to open up my bible and have a daily quiet time. whether it was because i didnt make the time to do it or i wasnt in the mood. i think its that one disease going around called being lazy... I've been taking so many beatings from the devil in so many unexplainable ways i cant even keep track. so since summer is here I have decided that I'm going take this time to grow in my relationship with Jesus. I'm going to spend time daily reading my bible and praying and serving God in what ever way i can... as easy as that all sounds, its going to be the hardest thing ever. and im prepared to take on those lazy days when just want to relax and forget about God. because God never forgets about me. I know God has a plan for me. I can feel him calling me to do something big and to make a difference in my school. so I challenge you devil, go ahead, try and bring me down.
-I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.(philipians 4:13)
I am so hungry for more...
I went to church tonight and God really spoke to my heart. (I love it when he does that unexpectedly) and He told me that I need to draw near to Him. I need to stop letting the devil bring me down by making me think I'm nothing and worthless. Cause God told me that he loves me so much, no matter what I have done or will do, he loves me the same. you know those little kids were there again, and during worship Joel did an alter call and asked for anyone who wanted to know God more or who just had something on their heart that they needed prayer for, to come forward so the pastor could pray for them. and wouldnt you know the only people to go forward were 2 of the little boys in the front. not a one of the teenagers went forward(out of like 20).that hit me hard. it seemed to me like God was saying, "thats what you should be doing, entering my kingdom with the heart of a child."
now I myself was praying and I felt God pulling on my heart and I knew I wanted to know God more but I didnt move. I dont know why... so towards the end of worship they did it again and I went forward and just fell to my knees and cryed out to God. I prayed so hard. and someone came over and prayed for me. by that time i wasnt the only one up there who needed prayer.
but i have just been so weak lately. i just havent been wanting to open up my bible and have a daily quiet time. whether it was because i didnt make the time to do it or i wasnt in the mood. i think its that one disease going around called being lazy... I've been taking so many beatings from the devil in so many unexplainable ways i cant even keep track. so since summer is here I have decided that I'm going take this time to grow in my relationship with Jesus. I'm going to spend time daily reading my bible and praying and serving God in what ever way i can... as easy as that all sounds, its going to be the hardest thing ever. and im prepared to take on those lazy days when just want to relax and forget about God. because God never forgets about me. I know God has a plan for me. I can feel him calling me to do something big and to make a difference in my school. so I challenge you devil, go ahead, try and bring me down.
-I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.(philipians 4:13)
I am so hungry for more...