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hey guys sorry its been forever scence i updated...im actually grounded from the internet till i get my room cleaned.....right now im back in to the depressed part of my life...i don't go a day a hour or a min w/o crying or wanting to cry...i hold it back...i don't like crying in frount of people expecally my parents....or actually anyone cuz they got to ask ?s...like if im ok...ovosly not if im crying.....i cut ........agian...i keep saying that ill stop buts its hard....the last one i did was the worse...it shows how i feel....laty i been a bitch....and mostly to ben.....idk y....so i cut my arm really really really bad kinda.....and i wrote my feelings by it....i deserve that...ben don't ...y am i bitching at some1 who i love to death....some1 who i care about most....y....y do i seem like im so jelouse.....IM NOT A JELOUSE PERSON....i think mayb its becauses im worried....i mean i trust ben a whole lot scale 1-10 ....10 deffently....i just don't trust the other person in the pic.....I LOVE BEN! I DON'T JUST SAY THAT..I MEAN IT IM SAYING IT W/ MY HEART!....just im a bitch...thats wat i am.... i wish i wasn't..mayb im a cold hearted bitch........y.......y........y.......idk....all that i know is how much i love ben.....and no1 gets it...no1 knows.....idk..im gonna go to sleep im so depressed...... bye
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