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today is horrable everything was fine in vermont I dint even think about my wieght ..okay well just a couple times a day BUT I din't cry or cut or try to vomit I fucking hate this, everything is going wrong, I want my mother to leave she's fucking ruining whats left of my life..and I know she will leave, but only when enough damage is done. I haven't yet over dosed , and I'm not et hospitalised..she's still work to be done, not much though because I'm not sure how much I can take, I think I'm going to admit it in therapy and blame it on her, sure they'll lock me up..but I'd be away from her