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It's been a while. 6 days to be exact. Life, still uneventful. this 'vacation' was not much of a vacation. Homework, which I still haven't done has stressed me out completely. I feel so lost and alone. But I will not go into detail about that. I've just been thinking and missing lately and it sucks.
On a slight happier note. My mom said for my borthday I can get my belly button peirced. And it can be an early birthday present so i can still go swimming in the summer. But no matter how BAD i want that done, I'm so nerbous. My older sister got her done about a year ago and she's soo tough. she said that that hurt like a mother fucker. My mom said her face turned completely white. My sister said that getting her belly button peirced hurt more than her tattoo. I'm so confused because I want it done SOOO BAD more than you will ever know, but I don't think I will be able to handle the pain of that fuckin HUGE needle especially considering my sister said it hurt fuckin so bad. And sh'e not trying to scare me out of it either even my mom saw a little bit of the pain she was feeling. Her face was completely white and she was gripping onto the chair arms rest so hard. I don't think I can do it. Somedays i'm just like fuck yea i can do it it won't hurt that bad, but when it all comes down to it i think i'll chicken out. I want this so bad so i have to force myself to do it. though i know ill end up wanting to vomit or crying or passing out. I want this more than ever and i'm just gunna push myself to do it. But i'm gunna get it done over April vacation.
fuck im so confused!
I'm fucking getting my belly button peirced even if it fuckin kills me!!
MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!
On a slight happier note. My mom said for my borthday I can get my belly button peirced. And it can be an early birthday present so i can still go swimming in the summer. But no matter how BAD i want that done, I'm so nerbous. My older sister got her done about a year ago and she's soo tough. she said that that hurt like a mother fucker. My mom said her face turned completely white. My sister said that getting her belly button peirced hurt more than her tattoo. I'm so confused because I want it done SOOO BAD more than you will ever know, but I don't think I will be able to handle the pain of that fuckin HUGE needle especially considering my sister said it hurt fuckin so bad. And sh'e not trying to scare me out of it either even my mom saw a little bit of the pain she was feeling. Her face was completely white and she was gripping onto the chair arms rest so hard. I don't think I can do it. Somedays i'm just like fuck yea i can do it it won't hurt that bad, but when it all comes down to it i think i'll chicken out. I want this so bad so i have to force myself to do it. though i know ill end up wanting to vomit or crying or passing out. I want this more than ever and i'm just gunna push myself to do it. But i'm gunna get it done over April vacation.
fuck im so confused!
I'm fucking getting my belly button peirced even if it fuckin kills me!!
MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!