feeling STRANGE about humanity...
as i sit here in this cluttered house, with its many cracks in the roof and the sound of the washing machine breaking down (again), i think about how much humanity has, sort of, ANTI-evolved, and here is my argument...
Why is everyone so fucking crazy?!?!?!?! We've been given such amazing potential as people, and we throw it all away every time God gives us a fresh new start...
We were given Paradise in the Beginning, and we threw it away for a fucking apple. We were given such a beautiful, soulful Earth, as we've trashed it. everything about modern man just seems so...ARROGANT and POINTLESS right now...
i know why i'm so mad right now- it's because i'm part of the problem. i do everything that everey one else does to become a complete waste of space, and there are times when i just don't care about it...now, i do.
i feel very detatched right now. i haven't been to church in a month, and i feel more nervous and miserable every day. i know what i need to do (ask the Guy Upstairs to give me a swift kicks in the ass) but i'm too lazy to deal with the consequences. meanwhile, everyone around me is starting to become a real pain in the ass; if i hear one more atheist remark, i think i may explode...
don't dare tell me that there is no God...i know FOR A FACT that God exists...there are times when i think he's not listening, but then i remember that God can also answer with a "NO" to my request. He's not being mean, he just knows what i truly want in life, despite my inability to focus on it. Like a real father, he loves, but he also disciplines. he is more of a father than my flesh-and-blood father has ever been, and i am so grateful for all the times he has put me in my place and let me realize that i am NOT all-seeing and all-knowing...
oi vay, that was hard for me to write. i'm going to sleep now. nighty-nite!
Why is everyone so fucking crazy?!?!?!?! We've been given such amazing potential as people, and we throw it all away every time God gives us a fresh new start...
We were given Paradise in the Beginning, and we threw it away for a fucking apple. We were given such a beautiful, soulful Earth, as we've trashed it. everything about modern man just seems so...ARROGANT and POINTLESS right now...
i know why i'm so mad right now- it's because i'm part of the problem. i do everything that everey one else does to become a complete waste of space, and there are times when i just don't care about it...now, i do.
i feel very detatched right now. i haven't been to church in a month, and i feel more nervous and miserable every day. i know what i need to do (ask the Guy Upstairs to give me a swift kicks in the ass) but i'm too lazy to deal with the consequences. meanwhile, everyone around me is starting to become a real pain in the ass; if i hear one more atheist remark, i think i may explode...
don't dare tell me that there is no God...i know FOR A FACT that God exists...there are times when i think he's not listening, but then i remember that God can also answer with a "NO" to my request. He's not being mean, he just knows what i truly want in life, despite my inability to focus on it. Like a real father, he loves, but he also disciplines. he is more of a father than my flesh-and-blood father has ever been, and i am so grateful for all the times he has put me in my place and let me realize that i am NOT all-seeing and all-knowing...
oi vay, that was hard for me to write. i'm going to sleep now. nighty-nite!