new leaf
I find myself thinking about my life and wondering what I'm meant to be doing. Seeing Giles struggling to cope with the loss of most (if not all for the last 2 months) of his sight. I'm even more passionate about wanting to train assistance and therapy dogs. I'm pursuing leads to which I may find myself on the right track to attain that goal.
I feel an empty spot in my life at the moment, as I normally do around holidays.
I wish that my step-mom didn't make it so hard to be around my dad...
I wish that my dad wasn't such an asshole...
I wish I could just hear my mom's voice...
I wish I didn't have to sit at that hospital all alone again, while Giles is in surgery...
I wish his vision would come back...
I wish I could take his pain, and annoyance away...
I wish I didn't have to deal with immature, selfish, children that want everything to be handed to them on a silver platter...
I'm tired of just running the other way when I'm faced with something I don't like. I've got a brain and even if some people disagree with me, I'm pretty smart. I'm so tired of being seen as a bitch because, I can't stand to deal with the stupidity of some people. It's like they fell out of the STUPID Tree, and hit every moron branch on the way down. I just can't understand how people don't just put 2 and 2 together and get 4. If you have several pieces of a puzzle how can you not just start trying on your own to put them together. If I could banish one thing in the world it would be stupidity!!! I can understand making a mistake, I mean hell we are all human we are meant to make mistakes that's how we learn. We all know I make my fair share maybe more than that, but how can you learn if you don't try to do thinks on your own. If that means that I'm a treat because I do think for myself and don't just blindly follow the crowd, well... I'm not sorry!
Starting today, I will speak up when something doesn't sit right with me. I will endeavor to temper my annoyance with stupidity, with apathy but I will not just turn away from things because I do not wish to deal with them. Maybe these are my new years resolutions, maybe they are my way of finally being the person that strive to be. Maybe it's me trying to swim rather than just treading water to keep my head above the depths of the depression that lurks beneath.
I feel an empty spot in my life at the moment, as I normally do around holidays.
I wish that my step-mom didn't make it so hard to be around my dad...
I wish that my dad wasn't such an asshole...
I wish I could just hear my mom's voice...
I wish I didn't have to sit at that hospital all alone again, while Giles is in surgery...
I wish his vision would come back...
I wish I could take his pain, and annoyance away...
I wish I didn't have to deal with immature, selfish, children that want everything to be handed to them on a silver platter...
I'm tired of just running the other way when I'm faced with something I don't like. I've got a brain and even if some people disagree with me, I'm pretty smart. I'm so tired of being seen as a bitch because, I can't stand to deal with the stupidity of some people. It's like they fell out of the STUPID Tree, and hit every moron branch on the way down. I just can't understand how people don't just put 2 and 2 together and get 4. If you have several pieces of a puzzle how can you not just start trying on your own to put them together. If I could banish one thing in the world it would be stupidity!!! I can understand making a mistake, I mean hell we are all human we are meant to make mistakes that's how we learn. We all know I make my fair share maybe more than that, but how can you learn if you don't try to do thinks on your own. If that means that I'm a treat because I do think for myself and don't just blindly follow the crowd, well... I'm not sorry!
Starting today, I will speak up when something doesn't sit right with me. I will endeavor to temper my annoyance with stupidity, with apathy but I will not just turn away from things because I do not wish to deal with them. Maybe these are my new years resolutions, maybe they are my way of finally being the person that strive to be. Maybe it's me trying to swim rather than just treading water to keep my head above the depths of the depression that lurks beneath.