Sorry, I went the Caroline/Stefan and Caroline/Tyler route...badboy_fangirlSeptember 27 2014, 18:32:20 UTC
love the one you're with | R | Stefan/Caroline, Tyler/Caroline | Spoilers/Warnings: Speculation for S6 / perhaps dubious consent? (it got a little away from me)
She can't really be in love with Stefan.
Because. Reasons.
All of them very, very good. Like, who wants to ruin the best and truest friendship she's ever had? And who can compete with Elena, even all this time later, even though she pines for Damon better than she ever loved Stefan, even though there is no chance they're ever getting back together. (Never, ever, ever.) And who can even read Stefan, anyway? She never knows exactly what's going on with him even when his words paint a very specific picture.
And then he just leaves, and she doesn't know where he is anyway.
(And she's so pissed at him, but that's just because is she is best friend, or what? Best friends don't just abandon best friends.)
(Unless one best friend is in love with the other one, maybe?)
Tyler shows up at Whitmore one night, lamenting his human condition. It's not that he's unhappy to be "normal" again -- but he is back to having temper issues, and he's living in constant fear. It's like it was then, when the fear was real but unknown.
"Sometimes, I just think..." he trails off, not looking at her. "It's inevitable, you know? My destiny is to kill people, to hurt people, to destroy what I love."
That's when his eyes meet hers, and a swell of empathy rises up in Caroline. She doesn't kiss him because of their on-again, off-again relationship. To her, it's all over, and it has been ever since she realized she loves Stefan.
But loving Stefan is just as much a soul-destroying element as a werewolf gene, so when Tyler kisses her back, she speed-vamps him up against the wall, and tears his clothes off.
She fucks him with all the relentless emotion inside her, none of it for him at all, and he is powerless to stop her.
(The flash of Damon in her eyes is not intentional. It's not what she means, it's not who she is. And Tyler comes in her mouth, so she knows he likes it anyway.)
She tells herself when he leaves her dorm room in the middle of the night while she pretends to sleep that that's just the way they are now. Perfectly normal.
She only sleeps when she's finally alone, and it's fitful at best, interrupted when her phone buzzes on the bedside table.
Re: Sorry, I went the Caroline/Stefan and Caroline/Tyler route...lynzie914September 27 2014, 22:01:12 UTC
I really really REALLY LOVE this.
I love all of Caroline's thoughts on Stefan and how she can't be in love with him because of reasons. And then supplies reasons just in case she needs reminders. And more than that, its hard to be in love with the guy who abandoned you, who told you he'd always protect you, and then left you all alone (again).
And then Tyler came, and there's so much history there (just like her and Stefan) and he's scared and needs help and has dark hair, and its probably just enough to get her there and she transfers everything to him, every feeling she has. (Like Damon once did with her when he was still in love with Katherine and the parallell, oh the parallel.) And then the end, where Tyler leaves and she pretends to sleep and Stefan calls.
AND SHE PUSHES IGNORE.
I love everything about it if you can't tell from my rambling. Amazing job. Angsty, but wonderfull angsty which is how I like my fic. ;D
Re: Sorry, I went the Caroline/Stefan and Caroline/Tyler route...badboy_fangirlSeptember 28 2014, 01:49:27 UTC
Oh, I'm so glad! It hit me just right, but since you didn't specify a pairing, I was worried you didn't want *shippy* things about Caroline. But I can't write Caroline without shippy things because. reasons. ;-) She has chemistry with everyone, and I'm dying for something to be realized between her and Stefan this season! HOPE, HOPE, HOPE!
The moment where she felt like Damon was cool, and unexpected, so I'm especially glad that worked for you! Yay!
Re: Sorry, I went the Caroline/Stefan and Caroline/Tyler route...lynzie914September 28 2014, 11:15:04 UTC
Oh, no going the shippy route was totally fine. Especially Caroline/Stefan being the heart of the piece, because I'm totally with you on the Caroline/Stefan bandwagon and things need to be happening this season and at least one time before the series end there faces need to be smushed together, just saying. LOL, sorry, off topic. But yes, totally fine, especially because like I already said its so amazing and I love how you wrote it. You might not be able to write Caroline without shippy things, but your Caroline's voice really is amazing.
And yes, there are actually a lot of parallels between the two (not necessarily in behavior but in...life I guess, like always feeling second best, not enough, etc.) and its always interst to see it come out. So I really loved it. Yay you for thinking of it! :D
Re: Sorry, I went the Caroline/Stefan and Caroline/Tyler route...badboy_fangirlSeptember 28 2014, 21:46:57 UTC
I so want Stefan to be the one to say it and make the first move; poor little angsty Care sitting over thinking he can never love her because she's not Elena and then he just tells her that he does. I'd even like it if she rejects him because she doesn't believe him and he has to prove it to her, somehow. I have so many feelings about them that go all the way back to the Pilot and Stefan telling her they were never gonna happen.
AND, AND, AND...I've always thought Damon was SO MEAN to Caroline in S1 because she reminds him of himself! So, yes, while Caroline would never be so cruel because she's a little ray of sunshine, she still could feel monstrous in her small ways and would compare herself to him in that moment, like she had coerced Tyler into it somehow just because her intensity of emotion is all about everything except the outlet she's using.
Thanks for talking to me about this...I haven't had a fun TVD discussion in ages!
Re: Sorry, I went the Caroline/Stefan and Caroline/Tyler route...lynzie914October 9 2014, 18:06:56 UTC
YES! I'm so hoping for the same thing. Not only do I want Stefan to realize it first, I want him to say it first, possibly while Caroline is still getting over his abandonment of her. (Because best friends don't abandon best friends.) And maybe she's not trusting of him and his feelings, because Damon is dead and Elena is in mourning and she still remembers the boy from pilot who told her it would never happen, and she doesn't want to be that girl again, full of false hope only to watch him go walking off to Elena again. And he has to prove it and she has to realize it and Stefan is the one left pining instead of Caroline who has had a lot of bad luck in love department. And this is me rambling, but yes, everything you said, bit fat yes to. I'm really hoping for it too. (Maybe our combined hope will work. ;D)
YES! LOL, again. So much of Damon/Caroline's relationship imo, is based on the basic levels that their too much alike in life, not in personality necessary (though there are a few things there) but their too much a like and it doesn't allow for anything other than hate, because their basically staring into a mirror of everything they dislike about themselves. Of course, Caroline also has the whole EVERY TERRIBLE THING he did to her thing going on, so of course their never going to be friends, but that doesn't meant the subtext or the levels of kinship aren't there, subconsious or not. And I love that she thinks about Damon in that moment, because she would, like you said, she would feel guilty for using her friend and she would flash back to being used herself and suddenly her blue eyes would be Damon's blue eyes and she will have trouble forgetting that. AND I LOVE IT.
I love talking to you about this. Such a GREAT (/AMAZING/AWESOME/ETC.) story and I love all your thoughts on everything tvd that you mention. I've enjoyed it too. :D
She can't really be in love with Stefan.
Because. Reasons.
All of them very, very good. Like, who wants to ruin the best and truest friendship she's ever had? And who can compete with Elena, even all this time later, even though she pines for Damon better than she ever loved Stefan, even though there is no chance they're ever getting back together. (Never, ever, ever.) And who can even read Stefan, anyway? She never knows exactly what's going on with him even when his words paint a very specific picture.
And then he just leaves, and she doesn't know where he is anyway.
(And she's so pissed at him, but that's just because is she is best friend, or what? Best friends don't just abandon best friends.)
(Unless one best friend is in love with the other one, maybe?)
Tyler shows up at Whitmore one night, lamenting his human condition. It's not that he's unhappy to be "normal" again -- but he is back to having temper issues, and he's living in constant fear. It's like it was then, when the fear was real but unknown.
"Sometimes, I just think..." he trails off, not looking at her. "It's inevitable, you know? My destiny is to kill people, to hurt people, to destroy what I love."
That's when his eyes meet hers, and a swell of empathy rises up in Caroline. She doesn't kiss him because of their on-again, off-again relationship. To her, it's all over, and it has been ever since she realized she loves Stefan.
But loving Stefan is just as much a soul-destroying element as a werewolf gene, so when Tyler kisses her back, she speed-vamps him up against the wall, and tears his clothes off.
She fucks him with all the relentless emotion inside her, none of it for him at all, and he is powerless to stop her.
(The flash of Damon in her eyes is not intentional. It's not what she means, it's not who she is. And Tyler comes in her mouth, so she knows he likes it anyway.)
She tells herself when he leaves her dorm room in the middle of the night while she pretends to sleep that that's just the way they are now. Perfectly normal.
She only sleeps when she's finally alone, and it's fitful at best, interrupted when her phone buzzes on the bedside table.
Stefan's name blares at her from the screen.
She presses ignore.
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I love all of Caroline's thoughts on Stefan and how she can't be in love with him because of reasons. And then supplies reasons just in case she needs reminders. And more than that, its hard to be in love with the guy who abandoned you, who told you he'd always protect you, and then left you all alone (again).
And then Tyler came, and there's so much history there (just like her and Stefan) and he's scared and needs help and has dark hair, and its probably just enough to get her there and she transfers everything to him, every feeling she has. (Like Damon once did with her when he was still in love with Katherine and the parallell, oh the parallel.) And then the end, where Tyler leaves and she pretends to sleep and Stefan calls.
AND SHE PUSHES IGNORE.
I love everything about it if you can't tell from my rambling. Amazing job. Angsty, but wonderfull angsty which is how I like my fic. ;D
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The moment where she felt like Damon was cool, and unexpected, so I'm especially glad that worked for you! Yay!
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And yes, there are actually a lot of parallels between the two (not necessarily in behavior but in...life I guess, like always feeling second best, not enough, etc.) and its always interst to see it come out. So I really loved it. Yay you for thinking of it! :D
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AND, AND, AND...I've always thought Damon was SO MEAN to Caroline in S1 because she reminds him of himself! So, yes, while Caroline would never be so cruel because she's a little ray of sunshine, she still could feel monstrous in her small ways and would compare herself to him in that moment, like she had coerced Tyler into it somehow just because her intensity of emotion is all about everything except the outlet she's using.
Thanks for talking to me about this...I haven't had a fun TVD discussion in ages!
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YES! LOL, again. So much of Damon/Caroline's relationship imo, is based on the basic levels that their too much alike in life, not in personality necessary (though there are a few things there) but their too much a like and it doesn't allow for anything other than hate, because their basically staring into a mirror of everything they dislike about themselves. Of course, Caroline also has the whole EVERY TERRIBLE THING he did to her thing going on, so of course their never going to be friends, but that doesn't meant the subtext or the levels of kinship aren't there, subconsious or not. And I love that she thinks about Damon in that moment, because she would, like you said, she would feel guilty for using her friend and she would flash back to being used herself and suddenly her blue eyes would be Damon's blue eyes and she will have trouble forgetting that. AND I LOVE IT.
I love talking to you about this. Such a GREAT (/AMAZING/AWESOME/ETC.) story and I love all your thoughts on everything tvd that you mention. I've enjoyed it too. :D
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