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I am finding it increasingly interesting that tramadol can function as an SSRI. I can't believe I didn't know this whilst I was on it, especially given my job, but let's leave that aside for now. It's not licensed for use as an antidepressant, so I at least have that excuse.
But since coming off it I feel... so alive. So me. I'm thinking things again. Hell, I'm *writing*. I've written three poems since I started coming off the stuff. Do you know how long it's been since I wrote a poem? I'm feeling things more deeply again.
I know this could be dangerous, could mean becoming unstable and proper mental again. But fuck me, it feels good. All these things in my head again...
But since coming off it I feel... so alive. So me. I'm thinking things again. Hell, I'm *writing*. I've written three poems since I started coming off the stuff. Do you know how long it's been since I wrote a poem? I'm feeling things more deeply again.
I know this could be dangerous, could mean becoming unstable and proper mental again. But fuck me, it feels good. All these things in my head again...