Praying helps - who knew?
Yesterday, I lit a candle for Lynn and spoke her name. We'd started the service with 'Let us build a house where love can dwell' that talks about us all being named as 'words within the Word' and it felt like I'd (slightly) redressed the balance from Thursday. And it feels like it's all becoming real, at last. The last two weeks have just been surreal, with me being ill, Lynn passing and the Hillsborough verdicts - I just haven't known which way was up. But now I have time and space to sort through it all.
Today's agenda (in no particular order):
- 8.30am morning prayer (obviously has to happen first!)
- clear out the stuff that's going to the freecycle market from the big cupboard and tidy up my bills (and perhaps find somewhere else for them to 'live')
- finish Chapter 3 of FFX-2, now that all my girls are around Level 50
- write Chapter 28 of 'Holding...'
- create flyer and banner for freecycle market
Anything that doesn't get done today becomes tomorrow's problem! We were talking about Wisdom in church yesterday and I didn't mention 'tomorrow's problem' as part of my personal fund of wisdom. But I did say, 'you can never know what's going on for someone else'. I remind myself when, for example, I see a mother screaming at her kids - perhaps she's just lost her job, or her partner's walked out, or her dad's in hospital - I don't know what kind of day she's been having, so I try not to judge. On one of the walls inside church we have a plaque to a young man who committed suicide. 300 people came to his funeral; his architecture firm was just taking off; but the blackness was ultimately bigger than his success or his friends and family.
So, part of me trying to tread the world lightly is trying not to pass judgement on strangers. I also try not to do it with people I know because I know that my own motivations can be seriously misunderstood, so there's every chance I've misunderstood others.
Here endeth today's lesson!
Today's agenda (in no particular order):
- 8.30am morning prayer (obviously has to happen first!)
- clear out the stuff that's going to the freecycle market from the big cupboard and tidy up my bills (and perhaps find somewhere else for them to 'live')
- finish Chapter 3 of FFX-2, now that all my girls are around Level 50
- write Chapter 28 of 'Holding...'
- create flyer and banner for freecycle market
Anything that doesn't get done today becomes tomorrow's problem! We were talking about Wisdom in church yesterday and I didn't mention 'tomorrow's problem' as part of my personal fund of wisdom. But I did say, 'you can never know what's going on for someone else'. I remind myself when, for example, I see a mother screaming at her kids - perhaps she's just lost her job, or her partner's walked out, or her dad's in hospital - I don't know what kind of day she's been having, so I try not to judge. On one of the walls inside church we have a plaque to a young man who committed suicide. 300 people came to his funeral; his architecture firm was just taking off; but the blackness was ultimately bigger than his success or his friends and family.
So, part of me trying to tread the world lightly is trying not to pass judgement on strangers. I also try not to do it with people I know because I know that my own motivations can be seriously misunderstood, so there's every chance I've misunderstood others.
Here endeth today's lesson!