Resolutions and writings
OK, the Nano-news first, since it is quick and very positive. I got up really early this morning and churned out 1,000 words before breakfast! Go me! I have managed another 1,700 this evening making the biggest daily total I think I've ever managed. I am very proud.
I had a bit of a grumble about work to the husband last night and almost determined to speak to Mark, today. This morning, the husband gave me a hug and basically said, 'don't let the bastards grind you down' which, of course, ended up with me actually crying in the street. Great. I got as far as the Anglican Cathedral and almost turned back home to 'phone work and call in sick. But that would have been letting the bastards grind me down, right? And I am sooo much better than that!
So, I dried my eyes, got a grip of myself and made it to work. I went straight to JB and asked her about the plots we had been making on the way back from Reading. She said she was going to work on them today but had no idea what our chances were of pulling it off. I pondered this and then decided not to speak to Mark. I don't want to start on one thing because I think once I start I won't be able to stop. And I'm not sure I want to hear his opinion of me at the moment (not that a negative opinion is in anyway based in fact). I also think the best way to stand out at the moment is to blend in, to be a good girl and keep my head down. I really, really want Jane's plots to work out and if they do I want to be part of them. I don't want anyone to have a reason to keep it away from me.
However, I'm still clearly distressed by what's happened over the last couple of weeks. Jane suggested talking to Personnel - nothing as formal as a complaint or grievance, just a chat to flag up that I'm unhappy. Then, if I do explode or anyone else raises a complaint against me, I've got something on record. So, I'm going to talk to them on Thursday.
Now I need to organise my thoughts and decide what to tell Personnel.
I had a bit of a grumble about work to the husband last night and almost determined to speak to Mark, today. This morning, the husband gave me a hug and basically said, 'don't let the bastards grind you down' which, of course, ended up with me actually crying in the street. Great. I got as far as the Anglican Cathedral and almost turned back home to 'phone work and call in sick. But that would have been letting the bastards grind me down, right? And I am sooo much better than that!
So, I dried my eyes, got a grip of myself and made it to work. I went straight to JB and asked her about the plots we had been making on the way back from Reading. She said she was going to work on them today but had no idea what our chances were of pulling it off. I pondered this and then decided not to speak to Mark. I don't want to start on one thing because I think once I start I won't be able to stop. And I'm not sure I want to hear his opinion of me at the moment (not that a negative opinion is in anyway based in fact). I also think the best way to stand out at the moment is to blend in, to be a good girl and keep my head down. I really, really want Jane's plots to work out and if they do I want to be part of them. I don't want anyone to have a reason to keep it away from me.
However, I'm still clearly distressed by what's happened over the last couple of weeks. Jane suggested talking to Personnel - nothing as formal as a complaint or grievance, just a chat to flag up that I'm unhappy. Then, if I do explode or anyone else raises a complaint against me, I've got something on record. So, I'm going to talk to them on Thursday.
Now I need to organise my thoughts and decide what to tell Personnel.