About a week left
Well, here I am at 6:40 am on LJ. Why the hell am I on LJ? - who knows. I wanted to make a post I guess before I run out of time in Canada and leave for Japan.
I want to say thank you to all of my friends who have supported me over this last difficult year, and to those who continue to support me now and through what I'm sure will be another difficult year. I'm actually having a really hard time with a lot of things and even though the occasional (okay frequent) bout of "drunken confessions" really gets old to people, I think I'm doing ok.
I wish that I could stay a bit longer and help Kyoung Min out. He really needs a lot of support right now and I kinda feel like I'm abandoning him. I can just hope that he comes out if this ok, and not so bitter. He's really bitter and angry now, and we're just trying to get him to see the big picture and to not hate all females. :S
I also have soooo much still to do, but I will not bore you with the details here, and trust me they're boring. On a related note, anyone wanna go bra shopping with me?
Also, due to last Saturday's early ending of the party for me....(first to go bitches), we're having another one this Saturday - hopefully not as crazy...well for me anyway.
I'm also having a ton of mixed feelings. Lindsay knows what I'm talking about - I'm actaully quite angry at the rudeness of people, the absolute disregard of manners and class. Really I'm hurt, but I choose to frame it in that manner. I'm hurt, I'm humiliated and I feel like a HUGE loser....but I have to have the confidence in myself to say that I am better than that, and 69 Queen Street has nothing on me.
I am however, getting really sick of being "the nice one" or the "bigger person". For once,I really wanna just reach out and go..."what the fuck?" "Why are you such an asshole?" But I won't and I'll just keep my crushed feelings to myslef and bother Lindsay with it...poor Lindsay - she gets it from so many ends....people should leave her alone with their problems. Let her have a happy life. I love you Linds!
Ok - this post made no sense....I'm still really tired from cooking a turkey dinner last night....that I didn't know was serving some undesireables....*shudder*. Anyway, onward and upward as they say....I am a better person and I deserve the best....so hurry up the best....find me.
L
I want to say thank you to all of my friends who have supported me over this last difficult year, and to those who continue to support me now and through what I'm sure will be another difficult year. I'm actually having a really hard time with a lot of things and even though the occasional (okay frequent) bout of "drunken confessions" really gets old to people, I think I'm doing ok.
I wish that I could stay a bit longer and help Kyoung Min out. He really needs a lot of support right now and I kinda feel like I'm abandoning him. I can just hope that he comes out if this ok, and not so bitter. He's really bitter and angry now, and we're just trying to get him to see the big picture and to not hate all females. :S
I also have soooo much still to do, but I will not bore you with the details here, and trust me they're boring. On a related note, anyone wanna go bra shopping with me?
Also, due to last Saturday's early ending of the party for me....(first to go bitches), we're having another one this Saturday - hopefully not as crazy...well for me anyway.
I'm also having a ton of mixed feelings. Lindsay knows what I'm talking about - I'm actaully quite angry at the rudeness of people, the absolute disregard of manners and class. Really I'm hurt, but I choose to frame it in that manner. I'm hurt, I'm humiliated and I feel like a HUGE loser....but I have to have the confidence in myself to say that I am better than that, and 69 Queen Street has nothing on me.
I am however, getting really sick of being "the nice one" or the "bigger person". For once,I really wanna just reach out and go..."what the fuck?" "Why are you such an asshole?" But I won't and I'll just keep my crushed feelings to myslef and bother Lindsay with it...poor Lindsay - she gets it from so many ends....people should leave her alone with their problems. Let her have a happy life. I love you Linds!
Ok - this post made no sense....I'm still really tired from cooking a turkey dinner last night....that I didn't know was serving some undesireables....*shudder*. Anyway, onward and upward as they say....I am a better person and I deserve the best....so hurry up the best....find me.
L